u/Background-North6775

I want to ask this to a specific kind of people, who've not been religious for long enough to have zero anger, resentment, or masking at the core of their lack of faith in a creator. i can remember how fiery i would have gotten at a title like this, half my life ago, when i was just losing christianity.

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i am lucky to be in an era in my life where I'm experiencing the shock of the realization that everyone's truth, the way they see, know, and process the world, is true. it can all be true. can it all be true? this has led me to bear a wider range of speakers on podcasts i love (namely Know Thyself), and many guests are entangled with spirituality--a broad word.

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i have a tendency to lean on physics and geometry as drivers behind apparent forces like manifesting & loa, which have gripped me for a long time. but past lives, heaven, souls, universal consciousness, stacked time dimensions, how far does physics lean in before its mystical and religious again? requiring faith.

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i don't believe anyone who says they know god and yet i still want to know god. ive been asking and.. no god. i can access great love. and it would be, like i said, cozy to have that trust. but i can't do the faith. trust requires more and it would be cool to have the trust. the belief--because i know. but how do you get to a place of knowing? with this stuff?

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where did this yearning come for in me out of the blue. young, fiery, athiest me would be haughtily apprehensive of this feeling. but im gentler now, and it's here.

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I'd like some advice from wise old hearts who've wandered past this spot before

Is it a tool or is it a requirement? If it's a tool it feels a step removed. What are the words for the realer goal? Real-er. Clearer? You get it.