u/BamzamGaming

Salams Everyone,

I’m a 15-year-old Muslim kid. You may have seen me before so sorry for the distrubence but it's gotten to much. still believe in Allah, I pray when I can, I try to be a decent person, and I want to keep the basics (prayers, pillars, good character). But I’m so damn tired.

For the past year it’s been nonstop pressure. My dad is deep in “Make Hijrah” content, watching videos about moving to Medina to study the deen, talking about how we should all go there, how it’s cheap, how it’s peaceful, how we need to follow every sunnah the Prophet did. My brother agrees enthusiastically. My mom plays constant nasheeds in the morning and MAKES us watch Jummah online if we don’t go to the masjid. Even normal greetings are “Salam alaikum.” My dad wears the kufi everywhere. The house feels like it’s always in deen mode.

Then the algorithm hits me with strict scholars (Shaykh Assim, etc.) saying music is haram, dating is haram, talking to girls is haram, everything is haram. I see 10/10 Muslims on my FYP living super strict lives and it makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong for wanting normal stuff. I have a girl I really like (Ana) — we talk every day, pet names, hearts, “I love yous,” respectful, no sexual stuff. But even that makes me feel guilty because of all the rules I see.

I just want the simple version: pray my prayers, do the pillars, be kind, date respectfully, listen to music, game, travel, enjoy life. I don’t want to be a scholar or live super religious 24/7. I want to be free like I was in middle school. But right now my chest is heavy 8-10/10 most days. It makes me want to puke. I feel alone, like I’m the only one who wants balance. I see kids in Japan and Korea living freely and it hurts. I love my family but I’m starting to get mad at them because it never stops.

I know there are different opinions on music and dating. I choose the more balanced ones. But the loud strict voices + family intensity make me feel like I’m failing or that I might not stay Muslim in the future. I just want to live normally without feeling restricted or guilty all the time.

Is this normal? Am I the only one? How do other young muslims deal with the pressure and still find peace?

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Hey everyone, I'm a 15M Muslim. Lately, I've been feeling a lot of internal conflict and sadness. I love gaming and producing music/making beats, but I constantly find myself wrestling with my identity, wishing I was raised differently so I could just vibe out without feeling guilty or restricted by my upbringing.

To add to the stress, my dad just dropped a massive curveball on me. He’s heavily pushing the idea of us moving to Medina or Saudi Arabia

He's watching A LOT of content about it and about hijrah being obligartory while in kufr countries and its best to move when you can. He's saying I can finish high school online and fully embrace Islamic culture. While I recently found out they actually have a huge growing gaming/esports and music scene over there under Vision 2030, the shift from the complete freedom of Vegas to a deeply religious holy city feels incredibly overwhelming and restrictive.

I’m currently trying to find a local job here to save up for my own PC and build my independence, but I feel totally caught between two different worlds and stuck in my own head. Has anyone else dealt with this kind of pressure from their parents or navigated this kind of cultural/religious tug-of-war? How do you cope with the sadness and figure out who you are? Thanks. Im just so pissed at this point. This feeling has been going on for a year but the medina stuff is recently.

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Hey everyone, I'm a 15M Muslim. Lately, I've been feeling a lot of internal conflict and sadness. I love gaming and producing music/making beats, but I constantly find myself wrestling with my identity, wishing I was raised differently so I could just vibe out without feeling guilty or restricted by my upbringing.

To add to the stress, my dad just dropped a massive curveball on me. He’s heavily pushing the idea of us moving to Medina or Saudi Arabia

He's watching A LOT of content about it and about hijrah being obligartory while in kufr countries and its best to move when you can. He's saying I can finish high school online and fully embrace Islamic culture. While I recently found out they actually have a huge growing gaming/esports and music scene over there under Vision 2030, the shift from the complete freedom of Vegas to a deeply religious holy city feels incredibly overwhelming and restrictive.

I’m currently trying to find a local job here to save up for my own PC and build my independence, but I feel totally caught between two different worlds and stuck in my own head. Has anyone else dealt with this kind of pressure from their parents or navigated this kind of cultural/religious tug-of-war? How do you cope with the sadness and figure out who you are? Thanks. Im just so pissed at this point. This feeling has been going on for a year but the medina stuff is recently.

Lowkey I’m so tired of this. I’m on a trip right now trying to actually enjoy myself and my parents still have dhikr and Jummah lectures playing non-stop like we’re at home. Every single day it’s the same thing — religious talks, jinn stories, community stuff, even while we’re supposed to be chilling. I don’t mind being Muslim, I pray my prayers and try to be a decent person, but damn I just want some normal vibes sometimes. I can’t even watch the World Cup without feeling like I’m doing something wrong because the background noise is always Islamic content. It’s like I can never fully escape it and it’s honestly draining me. Is this normal or am I just being dramatic? I don't want to feel this way but I honestly do.

Lowkey I’m so tired of this. I’m on a trip right now trying to actually enjoy myself and my parents still have dhikr and Jummah lectures playing non-stop like we’re at home. Every single day it’s the same thing — religious talks, jinn stories, community stuff, even while we’re supposed to be chilling. I don’t mind being Muslim, I pray my prayers and try to be a decent person, but damn I just want some normal vibes sometimes. I can’t even watch the World Cup without feeling like I’m doing something wrong because the background noise is always Islamic content. It’s like I can never fully escape it and it’s honestly draining me. Is this normal or am I just being dramatic? I don't want to feel this way but I honestly do.

Hello gamers! Before I started using a USB for my controller I just used the dongle it came with, it was pretty good for a min but I notice most of the times It had input lag but the game was barely stuttering and going into that slow mode state. So I decided to switch to USB and holy the difference, no input lag no delay just stright gaming, untilllll I noticed the lag spikes and the buffering slow mode state started happening more and more. Any solutions on how to fix?

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I believe in Allah and the Prophet ﷺ, but I’m really struggling right now. I just want a simple version of Islam: pray 5 times, do the pillars, fast Ramadan, and be a decent person. But everywhere I look (reels, Reddit comments, even sometimes at the masjid) there’s “haram police” saying music is haram, certain clothes are haram, even normal teen stuff is dangerous.

I have strong attractions to feminine girls and femboys (uneeded ik) 😭. I want a real relationship one day — loving someone, holding hands, innocent kisses, nothing sexual until marriage. But the guilt is killing me. My brain is constantly in protection mode trying to “save” me from punishment.

My family is balanced (7/10), but they still push extra sunnahs and sometimes threaten to take electronics if I miss prayer. School just ended and I’m already anxious about summer because I know I’ll be bored and the overthinking will get worse.

I’m tired of feeling like I can’t enjoy normal life (gaming, anime, music) without feeling judged or like I’m doing something wrong. Is anyone else in the same boat? How do you deal with the guilt and the loud strict voices online? I just want to be a good Muslim without burning out.

15M Muslim — I believe but I feel so limited and exhausted by all the rules

I believe in Allah and the Prophet ﷺ, but I’m really struggling right now. I just want a simple version of Islam: pray 5 times, do the pillars, fast Ramadan, and be a decent person. But everywhere I look (reels, Reddit comments, even sometimes at the masjid) there’s “haram police” saying music is haram, certain clothes are haram, even normal teen stuff is dangerous.

I have strong attractions to feminine girls and femboys (idk if that part was necessary but whatever). I want a real relationship one day — loving someone, holding hands, innocent kisses, nothing sexual until marriage. But the guilt is killing me. My brain is constantly in protection mode trying to “save” me from punishment.

My family is balanced (7/10), but they still push extra sunnahs and sometimes threaten to take electronics if I miss prayer. School just ended and I’m already anxious about summer because I know I’ll be bored and the overthinking will get worse.

I’m tired of feeling like I can’t enjoy normal life (gaming, anime, music) without feeling judged or like I’m doing something wrong. Is anyone else in the same boat? How do you deal with the guilt and the loud strict voices online? I just want to be a good Muslim without burning out.