u/BatmortaJones

Inkjet print of a childhood toy , a photocopy of part of a letter my mom wrote me when I was about 14

It's a tile shard I found in the street, a packing tape transfer of a self portrait I did in my 20s, strip of masking tape, and a typed out diary excerpt. The diary excerpt is my current defense mechanism which is basically the idea that I am not too much, other people are just not enough.

"I am a lot, I am so many. I am the whole universe and most have just barely been born and can't take all of reality; they need a swaddle and a breast, they cannot handle a god"

childhood trinket from the 90s, tablets I was prescribed (my cptsd was incorrectly diagnosed as schizoaffective disorder when I was 20 which kept me nice and docile), miniature baby bottle.

acrylic on paper

Gouache. The squares are imperfect otherwise they're around 3x3 inches

Gouache and acrylic on paper

Gouache on paper

I did this a year ago. I have a freeze response, so I often look really composed. This is how I'm really feeling under that facade.

Gouache on paper

Acrylic on paper

Key, strategic text cut-out from a book, vintage figurine from childhood, candle stub, an inkjet print of a photograph I took at a historical cemetery on which I wrote in correction pen "Will You come back to me in the next life? As someone who could love me?", pressed flowers old and new, craft paper in a shadowbox.

Acrylic, paper

Acrylic on paper

I started this a few months ago then paused it. I keep it around for when I'm brain foggy.

Acrylic on paper

Acrylic on paper