Currently 3dpo in the two week wait ttc number 2. Feeling down in the dumps today thinking about my little girl 🩷
That first negative hit hard, praying this month I get lucky… why does it drag! Anyone else with me?
I’m 10 weeks out. I’m having a bad day. I’m just replaying the whole thing in my head. I feel awful but I’m tired of it being my every waking thought. I’m tired of wondering what if. I’m tired of wondering when I’ll get pregnant again (17 months in). I’m tired of thinking of everything I’ll have to go through to get my baby. I’m tired of having to pretend I’m happy. I’m tired of the world around me being normal when I’m having the worst time of my life. I’m tired of answering ‘yeah I’m great, things are good’ when someone asks how I am who doesn’t know what’s happened. I’m tired of feeling like an embarrassment because this is my 4th loss in 17 months. I’m tired of trying to distract myself. I’m tired of losing time because I’m just consumed with hell. I’m tired of looking at forums wondering when I’ll get my happy ending. I’m tired of living my life two weeks at a time while ttc. I’m tired of nice weather when I should have had my big bump showing. I’m tired of counting the weeks down to my due date. I’m tired of looking at an empty nursery. I’m tired of feeling uncomfortable because I’ve gained a stone in weight for nothing. I’m just so tired.
I’m on cycle 2 post tfmr. My cycles are nearly back to normal, I normally ovulate on CD 14/15 normal but I ovulated day 17 this cycle (last cycle was day 19). So gives me a luteal phase of 12 days instead of my usual 13/14 days.
Since ovulation 2 days ago I’ve had terrible headaches. My hormones must be all over plus I could not have timed BDing any better so I’ll be fuming if it doesn’t work 🤣
Did any of you get your BFP on cycle 2 post tfmr? Or conceived when your cycles were still slightly out? I’m just so desperate to be pregnant again.
TW: tfmr, LC, loss
I’ve been trying for baby number 2 for 17 months overall (5 months of those I was pregnant with tfmr bub). This is cycle 2 and I’ve just gone into the two week wait.
I’m drained. I feel so hopeful and excited thinking this could be my month, but I’m terrified of it not and having a pit of depression hit me next Saturday when my period is due.
When I started trying 17 months ago I actually got pregnant first try but it ended in miscarriage at 6 weeks, a few months later a chemical and another few months another chemical, then my tfmr.
I suppose I can get pregnant ‘quickly’ but it’s never worked out and just don’t think I’ll be that lucky especially after what has happened. I am incredibly lucky to have a child but all I want is a sibling for them. I honestly just want my life back.
This is hell.
I’ve been trying for baby number 2 for 17 months overall (5 months of those I was pregnant with tfmr bub). This is cycle 2 and I’ve just gone into the two week wait.
I’m drained. I feel so hopeful and excited thinking this could be my month, but I’m terrified of it not and having a pit of depression hit me next Saturday when my period is due.
When I started trying 17 months ago I actually got pregnant first try but it ended in miscarriage at 6 weeks, a few months later a chemical and another few months another chemical, then my tfmr.
I suppose I can get pregnant ‘quickly’ but it’s never worked out and just don’t think I’ll be that lucky especially after what has happened.
This is hell.
I’m in the middle of my second cycle, can’t imagine this will be my month as that would just be too easy, obviously, but it has dawned on me that I could possibly see a bfp in a couple weeks.
How did you feel? How did you get through those first few weeks, I’m desperate for a bfp but terrified.
Just looking for some advice, I usually have 28 day cycles and ovulation CD 14/15.
First cycle post tfmr I ovulated day 19. Second cycle I’m on day 15 and still no increase yet.
Anyone experienced this?
I have a LC who is 3, been trying for number 2 for 16 months, had tfmr at 21 weeks. The age gap would have been 3 years 2 months. Perfect, until it wasn’t.
Anyone have any advice or wisdom about larger age gaps?
It’s been 10 weeks since I lost my girl. I’m 32 today, but would have also been 32 weeks. It’s a bittersweet day. I’ve never had a birthday where I feel down and wished it was over. I don’t want to celebrate at all and it certainly wasn’t what I envisioned for this birthday. Why me.
*sigh*
I’m on cycle 2 post tfmr. My usual cycle is 28 days, ovulate day 14, occasionally 15 with 13/24 day luteal phase.
First cycle I got my peak on CD 18, luteal phase was 10 days.
this cycle I’m on day 14 and not a hint of a darker line yet…
When did your ovulation timings regulate again, worried it will affect me conceiving :(
It’s a hard day today for me.
Please tell me your stories to give me some hope that there is light at the end of this never ending tunnel 🙏🏼
I’m 32, have one LC. I’m 14 months in to ttc baby number 2 and on cycle 2 post tfmr.
I can’t help but stress out that time is just getting away from me. My last cycle was wacky and this one doesn’t seem perfect either, I’ve also been super sick.
I always wanted a 2.5-3 year age gap. Now it’s looking like it’s gunna be a 4 year gap provided I actually get pregnant.
I know I am so lucky to have a child but I can’t help but grieve the life I was going to have with my little girl, I would have been 32 weeks. I just feel so behind.
I’m on cycle 2 after tfmr. TTC baby number 2 for 14 months now. How did you cope with the negative tests in those early months, not holding hope for this month as I don’t seem to be someone who gets pregnant quickly. My son took a year of ntnp, my tfmr baby took a year, I’m just fuming I’m back to square one. The unknown is just consuming
Now currently I’m full of cold and feel dreadful, of course I’m due to ovulate in 2 days time. I have been using cough medicine which some say can help ‘thin mucus’. I’m taking it for my chest not to actually thin my mucus but did anyone actually conceive while using this or when they were poorly?
I’ve wrote myself off for this month because I’m so unwell, I’m still trying but think it will be a miracle if it works this month as I feel like absolute SHIT
I’m trying to do as much research as I can to prepare for the time I get pregnant again. I’m currently in the second cycle ttc.
Has anyone done the advanced NIPT with Window to the Womb and how did you find the experience?
So my consultant has said in my subsequent pregnancy I’ll be monitored in the high risk clinic. I tfmr for severe heart defects and DiGeorge. I will have early scans/heart scan and early anatomy.
She said that if all those scans and early screening is fine she wouldn’t necessarily push for the amnio unless we wanted it as if everything is normal on scans you have the risk of miscarriage with amnio of a perfectly healthy baby.
My first instinct when all this happened was to have an amnio, but as I’ve been the unlucky percentage that had had to tfmr, I can be in the unlucky percentage who miscarries due to amnio.
I am currently ttc, but it’s something to think about for hopefully when I do get pregnant.
Did you have this with your subsequent pregnancy or did you choose not to if all other tests were fine?
I’ve been ttc number 2 for 14 months, 9 weeks out from tfmr. I’ve tried every trick in the book.
Is there anything you did/didn’t do what you feel could have helped the month you conceived?
I’m 9 weeks out from tfmr. Can’t believe it’s been 9 weeks. I’m on cycle 2 TTC, cycle 1 didn’t work… shock, overall 14 months TTC baby number 2. I just want to be pregnant so badly again, I’m so tired of TTC.
I have really positive days, but today isn’t one of those. I’m sick of living my life in 2 week stretches, it’s all I can think about. I feel like there is just a dark cloud over me all the time. I never seem to be the one that falls pregnant quickly.
I’m struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I feel so stupid for this but I’m 9 weeks out from tfmr at 21 weeks. Desperate to be pregnant again.
Cycle one was unsuccessful, going into cycle two and I just feel like this could be the month. My gut tells me it will happen this month, I’ll get my rainbow baby. I don’t know why I feel so strongly. No doubt I’ll get brought back down to earth very quickly.
Did anyone else feel this way and actually conceive?
I’m on my second cycle post tfmr. First was heavy and longer than normal but once it stopped that was it. Second cycle was normal, normal flow and 5 days. 2 days later I’ve had some bleeding again. I just have a feeling this isn’t gunna be my cycle as if I’m bleeding, then it won’t be good for implantation.
Did anyone conceive with irregular bleeding or wonky cycles after tfmr?