It all hits u on a random night
It’s been 15 months since my breakup, and in that time I’ve talked to other people, tried to move on, and honestly, I think I mostly have. I don’t cry over him every day anymore, and he’s not constantly on my mind like he used to be in the beginning.
But some days it just hits me all over again.
I loved him with every bit of my soul. Not in a perfect fairytale way , he hurt me a lot too, and there were many times he made me cry. But he was also kind to me. Gentle with me. He was my best friend, and with him I felt safe. I felt like I finally had someone I could truly call mine.
And even after all this time, there are random days where the grief just crashes into me out of nowhere and all I want to do is sit down and cry my eyes out.
What scares me the most is that whenever I try talking to someone new, I can’t imagine ever feeling that kind of love again. It feels like I’ll never find something real or deep like that again.
Does it actually get better with time? Or do some people just stay in your heart forever?