u/Bella5Rs

Hey there ! Hence the title, I've been pretty much strolling here and came to the realization of self, damn just dropped a post already 😅

Just stating the facts,

1. Yes, I'm a Malay hijabi woman. Yes, I am on the healthier meaty scale, the slim word has left me dinosaur ages ago 🤭. Yes, I am on the older spectrum for F to be in search of ( if u wanna just count in Malaysia but anywhere else age is just a digit )( yet I truly believe I am in my peak years of Life lol ) my chances are kinda slim here, but yeah whatever... We never know how cold the water is until we dive in.

2. I would say myself just modestly in the middle, not too lefty or righty. Tho it would be a bit more relaxed if we share the same faith and practice moderately ( open to all races as I am mixed race myself )

3. This is no. 3 but surely It Is The Most Crucial Part. Personality matters, GENUINE as can be. No time-wasters or simply to drop a Hi and ghost after a few sentences, really inappropriate of you as I value and look good in all situations as possible. ' Don't tend to others something that you don't want to go thru yourself ' LOL... Not meaning to start the Mommy Advice Mode be all stocky, actually I am a very easygoing & adventurous person. Love3 nature, mini-hikes, being active, quiet chill coffee hunts,etc...

4. Upfront is the code here, but not leaking all center stage. Having kids but never limiting myself to still living my Best Life yet and Loving Self coz this is about 2 souls to meet hopefully.. Not a Gamer at all, more into really Living it ( life experiences suited to write a book, which I hopefully will one day ☺️)

Thanks for reading this far. BeYOUtifully inside, it will shine outwards. Never stop trying until our expiration date on earth. Peace Out ✌️

I need to put this in Ink because insyaAllah I can truly be done with it after this and Walk Forward with my head high and my big heart intact. A hopeless Romantic living in a world where parents say don’t believe in Love again, ( just focus on your work & bringing your kids Alone ), friends who say at times ( who is gonna accept you truly sincerely a single mom with more than 2 kids so might as well you embrace your single moments ) and reading bitter comments mostly anywhere on how dating a single mom means she will not be balanced enough in the relationship/ she will prioritize her kids more than the guy/etc… bla bla bla ) Ughhh…

Why generalised everything ? Live a life and look at the pro’s before the cons. There are single moms out there who could take care of her kids well while still endure a Romantic relationship because she cares of her Self-wellbeing / mental state, she knows she wants to fill the Lonely companion void / someone she wants to grow old with because everybody knows kids will leave and max is they only need their mom is until 17.

To screw with all of that.

Tired, yes. Feeling fluctuated coz I’m a mere human, yes. Giving up on Love and know that my Right Person is out there that could beautifully fit and be flexible / somehow clicks and vibes, NEVER.

Never Give Up on the Things u truly believe in and how you really want it to be ( Decorate your Garden ), whether it is love, career, life-decisions and so on because that Defines who you Uniquely are. No two fingerprints are the Same. Allah gives every single one of us our own sets of struggles/trials/roadblocks/mishaps whatnot.

I’m a Widower, sometimes ppl miss that note. I did not choose to be a Single mom in the first place, evenmore so when the passing is very sudden, and shock without any preparations on how to continue your life raising small kids on your own, that was 7 years ago btw ) If the cards was in my hands, I would still be his wife till date. Oh yeah, why have that much kids, they say ? Isn’t one enough, don’t u have any life planning ? Well yeah duh, we plan every day, we plan what is our next meal, we Plan. But everybody keeps saying Allah is truly the best planner, so there you go, do the math.

Feeling like weird at times living in a Muslim community, but the very essence of Allah’s Qada’ and Qadr is not embedded in their follicles is profound.

That’s me. That’s my first rant on Reddit and I hope I will never have to after this, LOL. Usually I don't condone public outburst myself, but for how long can someone keep it bottled in, better to release it out of your system than butcher your own feelings. Always Pray for the good of all Muslims brother and sister. Wallahualam, Peace out.