u/Beneficial-Job-3082

I have been in my college for a year which is definitely not in west bengal and it feels so out of place and mostly when everyone around you calls you by Mamata banerjee, our state's condition rn, state's development rn, etc. It feels so annoying and depressing ngl, what a shame it is. Even when I try to tell them abt our culture, food - fuchka, biriani, mishti, they would still intentionally not listen and yap abt our literacy, development and bla bla...

I got an email from Google gemini that i am shortlisted and now I have to record a video to get to the final shortlisting round. Now my second year is going to start and in my second year I don't think that I will get much time to actually be active at this because my college is pretty strict about its curriculum and attendance.

Also I was planning to learn new things but if i join GSA then I will also have to spend much of my daily time in it which would eventually hamper with my studies and what I need to learn at that point. See, I definitely want to grab this opportunity because it is from Google plus they would give prizes plus I would be able to lead a group and host my events backed by Google. But also if I use that time in learning new things about programming, software then will it be more useful or this will be more useful. I know balance is best but in my 2nd year balancing such two heavy things at a time, I feel like will be hefty for me. Idk guys just help me out. I need your honest advice.

As a teenager, I can say this clearly that in every corner of this world, nowadays the topics for conversation has changed drastically, nowadays very few teens talk about news, politics, tech, science, etc. But instead what they do is make some dark jokes , porn memes, implement dark humor to gain people's attention and according to my observation, it freaking works. And in such an environment like this if you want to change you have to be alone or else it's going to be so difficult to maintain yourself. People have now normalised this habit to such an extent that people think that it's just a healthy habit so let them do it. But they are not aware how they are being used by the system with this. Even I find it difficult to find such people who would speak with me only about my interests and nothing else, but rarely have I found anyone.

Is my brain acting as a reflex for these thoughts by overthinking it or Is it an issue which can hamper later or it should be changed ASAP so that it doesn't play with my life later.