u/Big-Worldliness3027

I know this scene is going to happen eventually and I don't know if I'll be able to watch this episode when it comes out. Something about it just deeply bothers me. I can handle the cruelty when it comes to our human characters in GoT and HoTD but something about watching helpless chained up creatures get slaughtered is unsettling. It's something I can read about because I can sort of block the imaging of it in my head, but I don't know if I can handle watching it unfold on screen.

I know, it's a fantasy show and the dragons are cgi, but it just feels wrong. I'd rather much have them die in battle than to watch them get slaughtered en masse. The entire scene just feels edgy and makes the dragons feel incredibly weak in the story. It also doesn't help that dragons aren't exactly portrayed the same way they are in many other fantasy settings. They are just straight up domesticated animals in this show and resemble more like big house cats than anything lol. It's weird but I'm also a weird person. Does anybody else feel the same way?

Edit: some of you are taking this way too literally. Tone it down.

Hi all,

I'm a non-licensed operator (looking to take the exam in 4 months) and when I first came into this field, I thought it would be a fulfilling career. I was dead wrong. I've been here for a year now and I cannot stand the demeaning, daily monotonous tasks and the boredom has been really negatively impacting my mental health.

I originally came from fish/wildlife work but due to the tough competition for higher pay and permanent positions, I decided to pivot into wastewater after 5 years in that field. I was honestly overwhelmed by the amount of knowledge being an operator required but at about the 6 month mark I've hit a wall where I've pretty much learned everything I need to know but barely use a fraction of it.

I'm more of a project oriented person and I the whole point of being an operator is to make sure the same exact thing happens day in and day out. There is no experimentation or decision making besides some simple troubleshooting (tell maintenance shit's broke). It's so repetitive and most of my time is spent on my phone because there is literally only about 3hrs of actual work to be done. It also doesn't help that I'm just an operator and we have our own maintenance crew so the amount of things I'm allowed to do is restricted.

I feel like it was a mistake coming into this role and although I do appreciate the field for what it is, I just do not feel fulfillment. The reason I haven't jumped ship is because the benefits are so great. I'm kind of at a stand still with my life where I need to either decide to find better opportunities for my mental health or stay and be financially secure later in life (pension) with a moderate amount of time off.

Does anybody have any advice like where I could go from here? Ideally I'd like to stay in the environmental field but dont know where my operating experience could take me. It seems alot of the mind-stimulating roles are for enginners, but I only have an environmental biology degree. I've also considered a lab, but they don't make enough to live considering the salaries I've seen. I wouldn't mind staying as an operator if the job actually felt fulfilling. Do I just cope and watch the clock every day until I receive my pension?

31 years old, have an environmental biology degree, work as a wastewater operator. Tried to become a biologist but instead wasted a few years of my life as a poverty waged technician until I decided to move on due to the lack of advancement opportunities. Cant afford going back to school for a master's (stipends do not pay enough even for rent).

I'm a failure and I do not want to be stuck as an operator. It is a very demeaning job considering I have a degree I want to put to use. Where can I go from here? Any advice is appreciated. I worked in fisheries for 5 years after undergrad so most of my skills involve field work, data analysis and GIS. Not so much with R, but if anyone can tell me how to get experience with it without spending money on an online college course, that would be great.

I have a degree in environmental biology and worked with my state agency for almost 5 years. I started out as an intern immediately after undergrad and worked my way into a year-round seasonal position. The issue was that I made poverty wages and I still wasn't permanent. I did everything right as in taking every opportunity I could and working hard, but I still got passed over for permanent roles. Eventually I had to jump ship to the wastewater field. I contemplated going to grad school to be more competitive, but even with tuition being waived, spending 2 years of my life with a stipend that wont even cover all my rent with no guaranteed outcome of success seems impractical.

All I ever wanted to do when I was a kid was to better the environment and I worked hard all throughout college and my early "career" in order to actually achieve a fulfilling job and give my life meaning. My current job is important but I, myself, do not feel important. I feel like an absolute failure that I couldnt make it as a biologist or ecologist. Anybody could be in wastewater, and thats proven by the fact you dont even need a degree to get in. Some people would say otherwise, because its still adjacent to environmental science, but it's an absolute cope.

Alot of people will downvote me for what I'm about to say, but this field is only for the hyper-egotistical and extroverted individuals that have some sort of financial backing to get them through the hurdles of higher education, or networked their way in to permanent roles. This field feels like a club that I'm cut out from because I do not have the means to go back to school and I'm introverted.

My depression has gotten so bad that I wake up everyday telling myself how worthless I am. I dont want it to get to the point where I might contemplate hurting myself, but seeing all of these young "naturalists" and biologists that have made it makes me feel worse. All I wanted to do was to work in this field and I feel like I never will be able to.

Im about to turn 30 and I've achieved nothing with my life. I grew up wasting my time getting high and playing video games, eventually deciding at 20 that I wanted to try and make something with my life. I went to college late and got a degree in environmental biology. After graduation life looked promising when I immediately started to work with my state environmental agency.

After 5 years of working poverty wages for the agency and getting passed for promotions over and over again, I decided to jump ship into the wastewater industry. I have a more stable job but I dont feel fulfilled. I dont make much (60k) but I do get alot of time off that I am using to "catch up" on traveling - something I have missed out on in my younger years. I also have a gf that I am very much in love with. Still.. I feel like I failed at what I truly wanted out of life.

I thought I'd be doing something important and exciting, with an active role in conservation. But I failed because I refused to go to grad school due to the inability to support myself with stipends that cant even pay my rent, and because of the fact that I'm extremely introverted and dont attend networking events. I even tried attending one and it was a disaster and ending up just not feeling it and left after the first day. I'm just not built for the extroverted world of forcing myself to meet other people. I am very adverse to risk and I avoid alot of situations that require me to be social. Two very unattractive traits in the environmental field.

Now I feel like I'm stuck working a mundane and monotonous job where I know I am doing good for the environment but I dont feel like I am stimulating myself enough, or utilizing my worth. It doesnt help that when I go online, I see posts about some random person from kenya became a biologist or how some random kid with an engineering degree is filming some exotic turtles with a device he made. I know comparison is the thief of joy but I just wish I was doing SOMETHING with my life.

It's gotten to the point where I wake up incredibly depressed and I constantly think about how much I've fucked up with my life. I've worked hard but I have always been just short on being good enough for anything or anyone. I feel like I know what I need to do in order to be successful but I am unable to do it because I'm scared of instability. I dont want to go to grad school, miss out on 2 years of income and then jump back into the mess of job hunting with no guarantee of making something of it. Sometimes I feel like completely giving up and ending my life. I am sick of constantly feeling unhappy with myself and who I am.