I might have to give up on pregnancy
I have PCOS and can't get pregnant without intervention anyway, but I was planning on finally doing it after optimizing my health. Now I might not ever be able to do it because I'm on Cosentyx and the American College of Rheumatology is still using old guidelines. EULAR has updated their guidelines, but I was basically told today to move to Europe when I mentioned it.
My rheumatology NP gave me two choices after she talked to their speciality pharmacy, we follow the dermatology guidelines, which say to stop Cosentyx 5 months before even trying, or follow the rheumatology ones that says I can stay on it until I become pregnant. You'd think the University of Kentucky would be willing to look at the newer research instead of just going with outdated guidelines.
My PsA is pretty severe and doesn't just affect my joints. When I'm unmedicated, it affects my low back/SI joints, my hips, my pelvic floor gets so bad that I can't use the bathroom, and my burning belly pain comes back that makes me feel suicidal. I can't live like that, especially if I were to get pregnant. Protecting the mother's health and stability is the single best way to protect a pregnancy, and that's how EULAR looks at it, especially when it comes to someone with moderate to severe disease that might not be able to take anything else. If a patient needs the drug to stay stable, the guideline supports keeping them on it, because inflammation can affect a pregnancy. But I live in the US and no one seems to care.
I was offered Cimzia but I'm afraid to switch to it since I had scary side effects on Humira (dysautonomia, SVT, chest pain, etc) and they took almost a year after stopping Humira to clear up. Also, who's to say if Cimzia will even work? So I get pregnant, go through the whole process of switching to it, and then it doesn't work? Then what? And no one can absolutely say that my condition will get better when pregnant because everyone is different. Cosentyx has been amazing for me and I don't want to give it up if it's working. This is the first medication I've found to fully work and that doesn't give me weird side effects. Enbrel never worked, Humira worked great but caused scary side effects, Tremfya only half worked and did nothing for my SI joints at all, my pelvic problems got so much worse on it. She said if I can't do Cimzia then my only other options are Hydroxychloroquine and Sulfasalazine, which neither have ever been helpful for me.
They put a referral in to maternal fetal medicine to see if they can help, usually they have more data on stuff like this. I don't get it though, some Rheumatology offices in this country seem to be fine with leaving someone on Cosentyx during pregnancy and usually have them stop at 38 weeks so the baby doesn't have Cosentyx in their system once they're born and some places seem to be super rigid. I wish everyone was on the same page when it came to this. Hopefully MFM can be helpful and will be able to write a directive for my complex case.
It hurts because the ACR seems to treat women like a incubator that can be in pain for months, but EULAR actually looks at us like human beings. I don't know what to do, I'm already 38 and feel like my window is closing as it is, but now I need to deal with this stuff on top of it. I'm so scared to be in pain if I get pregnant, I remember that lower belly burning and low back pain, it was absolutely horrible. I can't stop crying because I don't want to go back to that, but I don't want to give up wanting to be be pregnant either.
I'm overwhelmed and sorry for even making this post. I still need to see what MFM will say and do, usually they can get past stuff like that. It's just the fact that I need to do anything of this has me upset. I wish I never had PsA, I wish I could naturally get pregnant and not have to deal with this horrible condition.