u/Bluex619

I'm tired of being emotional and getting my blood pressure high over dumbass/ignorant ppl (not saying that I'm not also a dumbass or ignorant. I'm not perfect.) it's just when ppl (including family) cross boundaries that I've been nice about (don't touch my items. If something of mine is in your way, let me know and I'll move it. Do not disrespect me, etc) I just... Shut down completely. Honestly, after all of the yelling and what not is done, I just feel stupid for letting it get me that riled up.

How can I at least avoid blowing up and voice my frustrations while keeping calm?

Also, will meditation help me calm down?

I've (29m) been drinking literally every day for the last couple weeks and I've been having fun as sad as it sounds. I'm stressed, depressed, short (5'5), Black (I like being Black though) fat (180-185 last I checked), out of work (union carpenter). Unemployment cut my benefits off so I'm currently not getting unemployment. I can't workout because I think I tore my meniscus in my knee and might require surgery (I don't want surgery), I have mental illnesses and learning disabilities (ADHD). I still live at home because I'm from Southern California where even a small studio is 1600$. Drinking is the only cope that is rewarding to me, lmao.

I Decided yesterday that I want to try a 30 day sober challenge. Its day one and this shit sucks. Its boring and I notice my life is more shitty sober.

I wouldn't say I'm an alcoholic. I still go to work and get my daily tasks done for the most part. I have driven drunk a couple times but I haven't hurt anyone (thankfully). With that being said, the last time I tried to give up alcohol, I started shaking a couple days later...

Idk, I'm just not happy sober.