sorry ofr the heavy censorship i just REALLY don't want to post my face online. I don't have a straightener, i know, i know, but i see people online who are able to get a pretty good emo haircut without one.. i just want the traditional short emo boy hair. been trying to get it for like. a year and i just can't seem to be able to cut it correctly or something
I'm a teenager who has been tested for autism twice. The first time they just wrote me off as 'gifted' (high iq) and left it at that. I have been struggling with terrible anxiety, being seen as weird/too loud and struggling with human connection, deal with frequent meltdowns over nothing (this one is the worst) i have special interests and sensory issues with noise, clothes etc etc. Life has not been great for a while but even when I've been 'fine' I have dealt with these issues. I went through a second assessment process this year and my therapist and the psychiatrist decided I don't have autism because my 'social intelligence' (i don't know if it's the correct english translation sorry) is too high. because im able to recognize other people's emotions well, and im able to mask some of my symptoms, some other stuff related to that they didn't give me the diagnosis. I am embarrassed to say I had the worst meltdown i have had in a long time when they told me this. Just screaming and rocking and wailing and eating a lot of paper. Just thinking about that moment brings back those feelings.
This time was different than the last because they recognize that i do have these issues and want to help me, but it's still difficult for me. I feel like I don't fit in in any space. They said I can call myself neurodivergent but it doesn't feel 'real' it just feels like they told me "yooo this person weird as hell 🤣 wonder why that is 🤔" and It feels like i will never find a space of people like me, and i will never be able to just explain why i act like that to random people with just a couple words. There will never be a box for me.
I know people that are diagnosed face discrimination because of their diagnosis, I don't want to take away from that pain, I just feel very alone in this. When i told one of my friends (he is diagnosed autistic) he immediately started acting so weird, as if i randomly became some complete other, and started saying like 'sorry i'm not making eye contact i have autism' as if it was my first time communicating with him.
I just feel so 'other'. there is no space for me and i feel like i will never be taken seriously by people other than my therapist
ftp. at 12m power right now, need to reach 20m. I only have 16k gems right now. My alliance is moving to another allianc, but you need to be 20m to get in. I miss the members of the alliance and really want to get in.more details in pics
One of my favorite prize figures I own. She's so majestic
Could find a place to watch 765 anywhere, only the first episode. What about the rest?