u/Bored_Boi_

Hi love, I miss you. I miss you in ways I can only describe in my mind. You are so wonderful and sweet. Your eyes that shine like emeralds, cheeks full of blush and warmth, the ears with mesmerizing gold, lips so beautiful that I could kiss forever. I miss our times where we could talk forever with no track of time, and how addicting it was to look at you and not even blink. I bet we lost a bit of that. But I still yearn for a day to see you again in that dress and glistens with gold. I love you. I always am the weirdo for you, and always be there when you need me. I hope the distance doesn’t ruin us.

Hi love, I miss you. I miss you in ways I can only describe in my mind. You are so wonderful and sweet. Your eyes that shine like emeralds, cheeks full of blush and warmth, the ears with mesmerizing gold, lips so beautiful that I could kiss forever. I miss our times where we could talk forever with no track of time, and how addicting it was to look at you and not even blink. I bet we lost a bit of that. But I still yearn for a day to see you again in that dress and glistens with gold. I love you. I always am the weirdo for you, and always be there when you need me. I hope the distance doesn’t ruin us.

Please tell me what you guys think

How is it to die? A question that always lingered in my mind. From what I understand about death, it's meant to be the final act of your life or simply the end of your consciousness. Movies portray it with a sad and gloomy setting. Even fiction dives into the sadness of losing a loved one, but does the loved one know what is happening? I don’t want to die; I love life and what it offers. With every breath I take to enjoy, a little bit more than the day before because the end is death. I am not afraid of it, as much as it may seem, as the world collapses on the meaning of death; I don't think it really matters, because you can't evade it. I do want to die, not because I believe there is something supernatural or there is a god and the devil. Likewise, I want to die because I would like to feel the warmth of someone telling me that they love me. As my lifeless body lies in a casket or burned into ash, I would still feel the warmth. I know it sounds so depressing, but at times I feel the need for love, and what I see the most is people who are in the final act of life get the most love. As a kid growing up, love felt natural and soothing. But as I grew up, from my parents to anyone, it felt like a reward for being what others want from me. The truth is this: I'm also like this. My love is also a reward for those who love me or show an emotion of warmth to me. I think there is one human I give my unconditional love to; it's my beloved GF. GF, to be true, I show the cold emotions to her; I am not perfect; I am merely a human. She is a warm coat to the endless cold void within my life. I do feel sadness and the horrible feeling of overthinking every minute detail of my life. But she has blessed me with so much; she truly is something special. I must contradict myself regarding unconditional love; I give it to any animal; they are truly blessed with the power to love and hold bonds better than humans; they have so many emotions, we have a language, and yet struggle to express the emotions that linger in our hearts. I wish to be an animal in the future, if the atoms of my body decide to realign after my passing.

So i realized this really messed me up, its not even been a full 24hrs, i feel grossed out with myself and scarred. I did change all of my account names, pfps, and blocked the guy. Money, i called and submitted a fraud statement, i just want this to be over with, ( 7-14 bussiness day for MAYBE money back).

TDLR: i was horny. went on telegram, the guy took a screen recording, and a girl I like follows me. and now im scared that he will send it to everyone I know. I payed 50$ already. im really scared about what will happen to me.