u/BrokenRandomBoi

This probably sounds bad on my behalf, and most definitely the most terminally online situations imaginable but in essence my crush and I play on this Minecraft server a lot, although not as much as of late. Recently, I was messing around with a player data viewer and found a book and quill in my crushes ender chest, not knowing it was his diary I started reading.

Now yes, I know reading it at all was invasive, even if it wasn't labelled as his diary, and I genuinely do feel guilty about it and usually I'd never read anything of that nature, but curiosity got the better of me, I truly didn't expect to find anything so deeply personal. I know how violated I'd feel if anyone read MY diary, which is why I feel so awful to admit I read his, but ill summarise what I read, trying my best to only include what's necessary:

One of the pages mentioned about a week where I decided not to speak to him around Christmas last year and how much it upset him, even though he pretended not to care at the time. And honestly he did a really good job pretending not to care, because I would've never though I affected him like this from some of the things he texted me.

But anyways, later in the book they admitted they currently have a crush on me but doesn't know how to act on his feelings and how he's very hesitant to make a move because he think I might've lost feelings or moved on already, (which for the record is entirely untrue, but I can see how he may have got such an impression!!).

For context I decided not to speak to him because he really was on my mind 24/7. I used to wake up thinking about him and the thought of him would never leave my brain, I eventually realised how unhealthy this was, especially considering that he potentially might not even be gay or like me back at all and so I decided a break from texting him would do the trick and maybe protect my feelings knowing I'd probably never get with him. And well, it did for a while until I became completely obsessed with him again.

After reading his diary, he messaged me saying that he wrote something for me on Minecraft, referencing that exact book I just read, saying I could read it once he dies or If we don't talk to each other in the future and that he left a button leading me to where I can find the book.

Now I'm stuck in quite the predicament where I know something I shouldn't yet, feel guilty for reading it early, and also like them back with my entire heart.

Do I tell them what happened and be honest and risk this potential relationship, do I pretend I never saw it and try to let things happen naturally?

This probably sounds bad on my behalf, and most definitely the most terminally online situations imaginable but in essence my crush and I play on this Minecraft server a lot, although not as much as of late. Recently, I was messing around with a player data viewer and found a book and quill in my crushes ender chest, not knowing it was his diary I started reading.

Now yes, I know reading it at all was invasive, even if it wasn't labelled as his diary, and I genuinely do feel guilty about it and usually I'd never read anything of that nature, but curiosity got the better of me, I truly didn't expect to find anything so deeply personal. I know how violated I'd feel if anyone read MY diary, which is why I feel so awful to admit I read his, but ill summarise what I read, trying my best to only include what's necessary:

One of the pages mentioned about a week where I decided not to speak to him around Christmas last year and how much it upset him, even though he pretended not to care at the time. And honestly he did a really good job pretending not to care, because I would've never though I affected him like this from some of the things he texted me.

But anyways, later in the book they admitted they currently have a crush on me but doesn't know how to act on his feelings and how he's very hesitant to make a move because he think I might've lost feelings or moved on already, (which for the record is entirely untrue, but I can see how he may have got such an impression!!).

For context I decided not to speak to him because he really was on my mind 24/7. I used to wake up thinking about him and the thought of him would never leave my brain, I eventually realised how unhealthy this was, especially considering that he potentially might not even be gay or like me back at all and so I decided a break from texting him would do the trick and maybe protect my feelings knowing I'd probably never get with him. And well, it did for a while until I became completely obsessed with him again.

After reading his diary, he messaged me saying that he wrote something for me on Minecraft, referencing that exact book I just read, saying I could read it once he dies or If we don't talk to each other in the future and that he left a button leading me to where I can find the book.

Now I'm stuck in quite the predicament where I know something I shouldn't yet, feel guilty for reading it early, and also like them back with my entire heart.

Do I tell them what happened and be honest and risk this potential relationship, do I pretend I never saw it and try to let things happen naturally?

This probably sounds bad on my behalf, and most definitely the most terminally online situations imaginable but in essence my crush and I play on this Minecraft server a lot, although not as much as of late. Recently, I was messing around with a player data viewer and found a book and quill in my crushes ender chest, not knowing it was his diary I started reading.

Now yes, I know reading it at all was invasive, even if it wasn't labelled as his diary, and I genuinely do feel guilty about it and usually I'd never read anything of that nature, but curiosity got the better of me, I truly didn't expect to find anything so deeply personal. I know how violated I'd feel if anyone read MY diary, which is why I feel so awful to admit I read his, but ill summarise what I read, trying my best to only include what's necessary:

One of the pages mentioned about a week where I decided not to speak to him around Christmas last year and how much it upset him, even though he pretended not to care at the time. And honestly he did a really good job pretending not to care, because I would've never though I affected him like this from some of the things he texted me.

But anyways, later in the book they admitted they currently have a crush on me but doesn't know how to act on his feelings and how he's very hesitant to make a move because he think I might've lost feelings or moved on already, (which for the record is entirely untrue, but I can see how he may have got such an impression!!).

For context I decided not to speak to him because he really was on my mind 24/7. I used to wake up thinking about him and the thought of him would never leave my brain, I eventually realised how unhealthy this was, especially considering that he potentially might not even be gay or like me back at all and so I decided a break from texting him would do the trick and maybe protect my feelings knowing I'd probably never get with him. And well, it did for a while until I became completely obsessed with him again.

After reading his diary, he messaged me saying that he wrote something for me on Minecraft, referencing that exact book I just read, saying I could read it once he dies or If we don't talk to each other in the future and that he left a button leading me to where I can find the book.

Now I'm stuck in quite the predicament where I know something I shouldn't yet, feel guilty for reading it early, and also like them back with my entire heart.

Do I tell them what happened and be honest and risk this potential relationship, do I pretend I never saw it and try to let things happen naturally?