hi guys I’m 17 and I have always been particularly emotional. I feel as if my emotions have fit me very hard and very fast for all of my life. Calling me sensitive is less than an understatement. I have struggled with SH mainly a year and half ago and was clean for a long long time until I just rlly frustrated and my brain almost short circuits to finding the closest blade and hacking at my skin. It used to be my arms but it’s so embarrassing having sh scars as a 17 year old, it’s so so embarrassing. I’ve been having a very hard time recently I’ve been crying for a whole month straight and feel rlly trapped and powerless in my life, I lack automomy in every facet and at times I just get so irrationally upset and uncomfortable in my brain I just start to cut on my legs to spare myself the embarrassment of visable scars on my arms. It only ever happens maybe once a month but since like February it’s been an ongoing problem for me. I don’t like cutting myself at all, I know better and should do better but my mind just can’t tolerate the discomfort and needs an external source almost a physical manifestation and documentation of the pain. I need therapy and a psychiatrist but my mom lost her job last week and I don’t know what else to do rlly. Any other tips would be appreciated
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Hi all, I'm seventeen and never rlly use reddit but im at a wall and dont know where else to go! Its my junior year of highschool and I feel as if I just have a fundamentally harder time functioning and orienting myself on a daily basis. I get so overwhelmed at times with myself, and have been crying, I kid you not, every day for the past three weeks simply because getting myself to act my age is driving me nuts! I know I am not THAT dumb(and have the capsity to do well), but i just cannot seam to keep my grades in order, ever! Since middle school i never can maintain straight A’s in my classes. Procrastination, forgetting to complete my assignments, getting so paralyzed with anxiety, i literay cant do anything but think about how i need to do my work! Im so frustrated with myself! Ive tried every trick in the book, forcing myself to sit 2 hours daily to do homework and do homework, setting reminders, working out before homework, staying slightly hungry during studying (it helps me focus i stg) but i dont know im at a wall!! I feel so defeated i feel as if i canbarely even muster the engary to even attempt anymore. Its like i exist daily in a constant state of overwhelm and frustration and the slightest trigger will cause me to tear up. Socially i have many friends and im very happy with my social life but im just so energetic and speak so much and am so loud i dont know any other way to explain this but, just childish.
My mom is a single mother of four, me being the oldest so she doesnt have the time to parent me like im seven years old, but honestly i think that would be the best for me rn. Ive been working on the weekends for two years now as an escape from my home because my siblings are loud and routy and it drives me absolutely nuts, anger and frustration to the point of levating i dont know. Even at work i seemingly just act like a toddler, leaving my things all over the break room, losing my water bottles weakly, all my spaces are a mess EVERYWHERE!! No matter how much i try to correct it!!!, Ive been helping out financially, also giving her all my checks for the past two years, and she also just lost her job the other day, which is just pilling on. I've tried it all of the self help jargon, all of it and i just am at capsity it doesntmatter if i sleep for 8 hours nighty or what its making me so hopeless and self loathing… im at risk of ruining my already less than steller GPA (3.12) because right now i have a 1.4 in AP lang 11. If anyone has any tips it would be greatly appreciated!! What do I do? Where do I go from here? I asked my mom but she told me i just needed to pray, and Ive cried in the counselor's office, but nothing really ever came from it.
Hi all, I'm seventeen and never rlly use reddit but im at a wall and dont know where else to go! Its my junior year of highschool and I feel as if I just have a fundamentally harder time functioning and orienting myself on a daily basis. I get so overwhelmed at times with myself, and have been crying, I kid you not, every day for the past three weeks simply because getting myself to act my age is driving me nuts! I know I am not THAT dumb(and have the capsity to do well), but i just cannot seam to keep my grades in order, ever! Since middle school i never can maintain straight A’s in my classes. Procrastination, forgetting to complete my assignments, getting so paralyzed with anxiety, i literay cant do anything but think about how i need to do my work! Im so frustrated with myself! Ive tried every trick in the book, forcing myself to sit 2 hours daily to do homework and do homework, setting reminders, working out before homework, staying slightly hungry during studying (it helps me focus i stg) but i dont know im at a wall!! I feel so defeated i feel as if i canbarely even muster the engary to even attempt anymore. Its like i exist daily in a constant state of overwhelm and frustration and the slightest trigger will cause me to tear up. Socially i have many friends and im very happy with my social life but im just so energetic and speak so much and am so loud i dont know any other way to explain this but, just childish.
My mom is a single mother of four, me being the oldest so she doesnt have the time to parent me like im seven years old, but honestly i think that would be the best for me rn. Ive been working on the weekends for two years now as an escape from my home because my siblings are loud and routy and it drives me absolutely nuts, anger and frustration to the point of levating i dont know. Even at work i seemingly just act like a toddler, leaving my things all over the break room, losing my water bottles weakly, all my spaces are a mess EVERYWHERE!! No matter how much i try to correct it!!!, Ive been helping out financially, also giving her all my checks for the past two years, and she also just lost her job the other day, which is just pilling on. I've tried it all of the self help jargon, all of it and i just am at capsity it doesntmatter if i sleep for 8 hours nighty or what its making me so hopeless and self loathing… im at risk of ruining my already less than steller GPA (3.12) because right now i have a 1.4 in AP lang 11. If anyone has any tips it would be greatly appreciated!! What do I do? Where do I go from here? I asked my mom but she told me i just needed to pray, and Ive cried in the counselor's office, but nothing really ever came from it.
Hi all, I'm seventeen and never rlly use reddit but im at a wall and dont know where else to go! Its my junior year of highschool and I feel as if I just have a fundamentally harder time functioning and orienting myself on a daily basis. I get so overwhelmed at times with myself, and have been crying, I kid you not, every day for the past three weeks simply because getting myself to act my age is driving me nuts! I know I am not THAT dumb(and have the capsity to do well), but i just cannot seam to keep my grades in order, ever! Since middle school i never can maintain straight A’s in my classes. Procrastination, forgetting to complete my assignments, getting so paralyzed with anxiety, i literay cant do anything but think about how i need to do my work! Im so frustrated with myself! Ive tried every trick in the book, forcing myself to sit 2 hours daily to do homework and do homework, setting reminders, working out before homework, staying slightly hungry during studying (it helps me focus i stg) but i dont know im at a wall!! I feel so defeated i feel as if i canbarely even muster the engary to even attempt anymore. Its like i exist daily in a constant state of overwhelm and frustration and the slightest trigger will cause me to tear up. Socially i have many friends and im very happy with my social life but im just so energetic and speak so much and am so loud i dont know any other way to explain this but, just childish.
My mom is a single mother of four, me being the oldest so she doesnt have the time to parent me like im seven years old, but honestly i think that would be the best for me rn. Ive been working on the weekends for two years now as an escape from my home because my siblings are loud and routy and it drives me absolutely nuts, anger and frustration to the point of levating i dont know. Even at work i seemingly just act like a toddler, leaving my things all over the break room, losing my water bottles weakly, all my spaces are a mess EVERYWHERE!! No matter how much i try to correct it!!!, Ive been helping out financially, also giving her all my checks for the past two years, and she also just lost her job the other day, which is just pilling on. I've tried it all of the self help jargon, all of it and i just am at capsity it doesntmatter if i sleep for 8 hours nighty or what its making me so hopeless and self loathing… im at risk of ruining my already less than steller GPA (3.12) because right now i have a 1.4 in AP lang 11. If anyone has any tips it would be greatly appreciated!! What do I do? Where do I go from here? I asked my mom but she told me i just needed to pray, and Ive cried in the counselor's office, but nothing really ever came from it.