My story
Hello i am writing my story because I feel very alone. As a heads up I am mixed black woman and this person was a white man who is a self proclaimed white supremacist.
I went through a very intense and emotionally damaging situation with someone I briefly “dated” after meeting them through work. The entire dynamic became extremely unhealthy very quickly and left me with a lot of confusion, fear, anxiety, and emotional trauma that I’m still processing in therapy.
The first incident this person penetrated me so hard without my consent they tore my cervix. The 2nd time I fell asleep at their house and I woke up to be being penetrated. Things were extreme even when I consented such as choking, bruises all over my body, and degrading talk calling me a fucking bitch.
At the time I tried to control the situation as much as I could but eventually it became more dangerous as he started to threaten my life, blackmail with nudes, i found out he kept my bloody sheets of when my cervix was torn. I got knocked up and ended up terminating it which is when the racism kicked in about my hair texture, his true feelings towards black/mixed people.
I feel so embarrassed that I didnt know this person was using me as a revenge fantasy of some sort. He hated black people so much he baited me and ruined my life.
If theres anyone dating such as in person, using apps, etc ALWAYS do a background. He had racist posts I didnt know about until I did my own research. It hurts me to this day bc I never got justice the way I wanted. It hurts to know hes going around dating women and they have no clue. If anyone has a similar story or wants to talk im here to listen and share. I just feel very alone