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I have been pretty emotional as of recent. I have had a few parts who have been dominating some conversations to include:

A critical part that is calling me names and focusing on my weight as a negative, all encompassing thing. I've had moments where I cannot shake this bully who continues to tell me I am "gross" and that I look horrible in every picture and in real time moments. After running in circles about my physical appearance it decides to switch up on me and transitions to saying some nasty stuff along the lines that "no one cares about you."

Sadness quickly comes up and get's suppressed by a distractor part after this run in with the critic. It is almost like I am running away from the feelings that come up the second I get the chance, because who in the hell wants to think about all that?

Anyway if I didn't know about this work I would probably just continue to work in tandem with my distraction/numbing part. I'd be praised for working through my stuff so well while continuing to rinse and repeat the cycle.

Although I am very annoyed right now and I feel very burned out, truthfully I know what I need to do. I need to talk to these parts and limit the brawl between distractor, sadness, and the critic.

Just needed to get this out to stay accountable. As the title says life would be "easier" if i didn't have to do the fucking work... but alas, this work will pay off even if it is terrifying right now.

To anyone else going through this right now just know I'm right there with you, pissed off about having to do it but understanding deep down this work is good for me and will get me where I want to be.

Thanks for listening enjoy my silly meme :)

I was curious does anyone have a part that makes it hard to take a belly breath ? Almost like you’ve been tense the whole day and taking short breaths consistently.
I notice when I get home from my new stressful environment I have to actually make myself breathe in four counts or else my body continues to breathe short and shallow. It has been hard to shake!

This is just an appreciation post. I know the city has problems but one of the things I look forward to each summer (and I’m sad I won’t make due to being away from Erie now) is the sunrise yoga every Wednesday in the summer offered by the climbing gym at the Bicentennial Tower.

It has to be one of the most beautiful things to do at 6am. The views are incredible and although the instructor guides you through a sequence you’re able to do your own flow if needed.

Just really showcases what can happen in our community when we come together for something that provides some joy to our mornings :) everyone’s in community during that hour, but also doing what they need to feel calm and grounded.

If you’re new to the area or have never been I highly encourage it and just wanted to share !