u/Bulky_Leave4209

what is the minimum marks to score in order to avoid back ?

So i am M19, engineer ( first year ) and i always wanted to be an engineer, my goal ? - no
it was like my most eldest brother had a very good job and was like my inspiration for everything and he suggested me to become an engineer ( we lost him this year )

Now during lockdown i found myself editing videos and since then it was into my veins and now when i am in my second semester rightnow, i am managing my exams and my internship ( decent enough money ), ... i dont know its like i dont know if i am doing right or not

should i remove my focus from this or not
am i doing good enough ? because its like idk i am very confused rightnow

i have two choices
either manage both, strain myself and get a job where i might actually do good

or
study, follow my parents advice and might stay unemployed ( i am from ece )

i know the choice is pretty easy to make
but i have to take option a and go against my parents advices so yeah maybe that's a problem

i know its pretty dumb post but my chest really feels heavy sometimes thinking about my future...

my sdf - 2 lab so far is going very shit
labs mei fail toh nahi hote hai na ?
I have attendance and everything
its just the evals, labtests that went bad

looking for a silent keyboard
budget - 3k ( i am a student )