u/CARLOPLAYZ3

This is my third post in this Subreddit, I don't think I'm mentally stable

So recently, I'm starting to think that my dream of being a content creator or a famous YouTuber Star is starting to crumble

I've been working on my channel since 2024, and I improved things like thumbnails, editing, narration, and even making my videos as engaging as possible

But through out this May, I don't even know what do do in this situation

It always feels like I am wasting my time on useless sh*t on things that never get any traction

I average 1-3 views on my videos that take me hours, days, even weeks of work

And never get support from my friends or family

Its always the same f*cking thing:
"Carlo, do better!"
"Carlo, this is terrible!"
"Carlo, you are wasting your time on useless things!"

Usually, parents support their child's dreams, but I haven't seen support for my 8 year old dream through out the 14 years I've been alive

I never get any kind of support or even a simple gesture of Recognition for the work I do

That's also the reason why I almost never Idolize anyone

Because they have fans, supporters, parents who actually believed in their dreams, a set up

Me? I'm poor, sh*tty, and live in a place full of dream sh*tters

Just trying to talk about my channel makes me dragged through the dirt and spat on

And this isn't only from family and friends

People on the internet has been sh*tting on my work since 2024

For anything I do, I see more people who would rather sh*t on a kid, trying to achieve his dream that he has wanting to achieve for years than regular citizens of the internet

For some reason, the hard work I do just attracts more trolls, haters, and dream killers than I actually see real supporters

And do what you want, call me dramatic or over reacting on simple things or simple hate

But I don't even care at this point

I've gone through years of work just for nothing

I hate this