u/CH1033333

i(16f) have been with my foster parents for approaching a year, and its been kinda rough, and it feels like its my fault. i already have a group of friends ive been comfortable with since before getting into foster care, so i end up spending a lot of my time out of the house. when i am home i mostly just keep to my own room unless they bring me out for dinner which i appreciate but it always feels like im leeching off of them for a place to stay and for allowance. i help with chores but other than that im scared im not being appreciative of them willing to take care of me. im just not good at that kinda thing in general, but especially when i already grew up not really liking my parental figures, plus only knowing them for a year-ish. any advice from foster parents/other teens in similar situations?

ive spent my childhood and teenage years mostly in abusive situations in my family and in relationships. recently lifes been beginning to stabilise but i cant stop myself feeling jealous that people my age are graduating to their next school, getting good grades, having loving parents, meanwhile i was stuck trying to survive for most of those years, and it feels like that opportunity to experience it has been taken away from me

ive been told to focus on the future but that doesnt tale away the fact that i just wont ever lead the same life so many others take for granted