u/Calm-Barber-6055

i’m drunk and i have been with my boyfriend for 4
days but really we have been talking and kissing for 5 months we did it raw because im drunk and o domt really know i’m on the depo shot (birth control) and he didn’t finish in or near me i’m scared

i graduated last night and for some reason his siblings and him were there. they have friends who were graduating so i guess they came to see them but it has been 5 months since breakup and i thought i was over it till i saw his face. he looked the same and i wish i could hug him after getting my diploma but no we made eye contact and then he looked away it hurt seeing him still have and have the same mannerisms i honestly felt like the world stopped spinning now i can’t stop thinking about it and him. idk what to do i just had to type how i feel somewhere. PS i got told that his siblings said “I can’t make decisions for (his name)” insinuating that if they could make decisions for him they would have him get back with me. thank you