Relapsed
I’m disappointed in myself for sneaking away to receive services from a prostitute (received oral while wearing condom). I was regretting it immediately after the act. When i use to act out more regularly i didn’t feel this way afterward like i had just done something wrong… instead i felt like “damn if i had more money id do it again”. But this time was different just immediate regret. I have a fiancé that i have to go back home to and i don’t think i want to tell her but at the same time i know i don’t want to live with this.