u/Calowayyy

From the Midwest. Looking for a job in the gulf area, never been. Whats it like?

From the Midwest. Looking for a job in the gulf area, never been. Whats it like?

About 4 months from the final split. She had roped me in again and I did the final break after once again discovering her flirting with one of her many backup dudes.

It comes and goes in waves, and sometimes I struggle with missing her. But then I have to wrestle with my own thoughts and remind myself for the last two years it was dogshit, and I miss a version of her that simply doesn’t exist anymore. And this quiet grieving is so much better than the gut wrenching fucking agony she would put me through during a split.

The hour long fights over nothing. The gas lighting and trickle truths. Hours of prolonged panic attacks and what I could only describe as mental anguish.

I think it’s important to remember that, for anyone struggling. Often partners of BPD inflicted people have a savior complex and get pushed to the very fucking brink.

Hope you are all well.

So Ive been like craving some of the good ole shit like Grammy used to fix.

Does anyone know where in the DSM metro that provides this?