u/CapableMeringue5199

Enjoy what exactly? I don’t have a place to myself. I share a mattress, my clothes are in a pile in the walkway(constantly being stepped on), the living room is piled with junk. Not only is my mom a hoarder, but she’s also a narcissist. I can’t even go somewhere without her guilt tripping me about not taking her with me. I can’t get a drawer inside the house because of the hoard. I’d like to think I make good money and I can’t even move out cause everything is so expensive! I don’t want a roommate, because I would like some mental peace for once. I don’t know what to do!

She’s been a hoarder my whole life. I don’t have space in my hoarded up “room”. A room full of clothes and junk. There’s absolutely no space for anything of mine. I always fight her over where I should put my clothes, and her logic has always been “just keep it neatly”. Like bitch where? Why should I keep it “neatly” when my only option is on an exercise machine. So, today we had the discussion again. She came back with “maybe if you just kept your clothes in bags…”. Like NO! I told her I didn’t want my clothes to smell like plastic, and like why should I have to put it in bags? She has the audacity to tell me “at least it’ll smell better than dog poop since you step on it with your shoes”. Which is a lie because, I don’t wear my shoes in the room for that exact reason. Her on the other hand. She has no problem stepping and leaving her shoes on top of my clothes.

My moms backhanded comments are in full force today. Since it’s Father’s Day tomorrow. The snarky remarks, the oh poor me comments, like pls it’s just one day. I won’t even spend it with my dad since I work tomorrow.

My sister just moved back from university and I was sleeping in her room. She came in with a vengeance and threw out all my belongings outside the room. It wasn’t much honestly. A pillow, blankets, a suitcase, and just small stuff. Now I get to go back to sharing a bed with my controlling mom who doesn’t like to keep the window open during the summer. All of my belongings are on the floor where everyone steps on them. So I was thinking of offering her money to clean the living room so I can at least have some space. Our “living room” is filled top to bottom with bag and clothes. It’s not a big area either, there’s only a little walkway to go through. Should I do it? And see if she’ll take it? Just needed some of advice, I highly doubt she’ll do it.

I can’t anymore. I feel like my nmoms punching bag. Everything is always negative and I always end up crying about it.
Once someone was telling her how much of a “good young lady” I am. She stops him and goes “her?! I don’t think so, if only you really knew her”
I was telling her how I meet a girl at work who ended up really liking me “Wow if she liked you, I can’t imagine what the other girls at work treat her like”
She yelled at me today for something my dad did. When she clearly knew it was him. She still questioned me on why I would do something like that after I told her it wasn’t me.
Nothing is ever good for her. I’m sooo tired of it! I’m tired of being sensitive and everything affecting me to where I end up crying

My bf gave me some roses and I want to make them into a rosary, but idk how.