I’ve been trying to look for explanations but everybody is saying something different. “Oh nothing is going to happen they say this every year” or “We’re cooked” or “we don’t know” or “Its going to suck but it’s not as bad as people are saying.”
I live in the south in the US and I just want to know fully what El Niño is so I’ll know how it’ll affect me and how to prepare.
I’m a sophomore in college. I am not a teacher obviously but I, at some point, wished to become one someday. But seeing the way the school systems are nowadays honestly make me lose motivation as I’ve dreamt of teaching for so long. My mother is a teacher but she teaches pre k and has only ever taught pre k so I feel like I can’t really have a conversation with her about this.
Teaching has been something I’ve always wanted to do since I was small. The most impactful people in my life have been teachers. The people who have saved my life were teachers. And just hearing the literacy rates nowadays makes me feel sad and hopeless. That maybe I will never be that teacher who could save a student the same way I was once saved.
In this day and age, is it even worth striving to be a teacher anymore?
Broke my 51 day streak and I’m back on Day 5. I’m not considering this a “reset” although it is a reset in my streak. But it’s not a mental reset. It’s not like the progress I’ve made suddenly disappears. I’m not the same person I was 56 days ago. I just had a slip up.
I feel way better than when I began my quitting journey, which is good. I told my therapist(who already knows I’m struggling) that I relapsed. Which I was very embarrassed to do… but we set my next milestone to Halloween. Because by then, I’ll be more than back on my original streak.
It’s been hard though. I am suffering from depression and anxiety. Porn used to be my crunch. So I’m feeling the emotions I’ve been trying so hard to keep away. I know it’ll be ok eventually but I just need to get over this hump first. I’m getting on meds soon so hopefully that’ll help.
Day 40. The only place I would watch porn would be my bedroom. Multiple times a day, mostly everyday. Now that I quit, I find sleeping in there quite uncomfortable. So I’ve been sleeping on the couch most nights. But the couch has always been my safe space. I get the best sleep when I’m not home at all, though.
I’ve also been having nightmares and on some instances, weird sexual dreams that I much rather not be having. I noticed that the nightmares go away when I take melatonins but I honestly hate how the melatonins make me feel once I wake up. Like… some zombie. So I’m going to stop taking them. I also can put my phone down and just tell myself “Ok. Time to sleep.” Before, I would just pass out with the phone in my hand.
But this entire thing made me realize that my porn use is only scratching the surface of my mental health problems.
I have a regular therapist already and I’ve told her about me recovering from my porn addiction. She seems supportive but since I just began seeing her, I haven’t gone in depth about it yet and cannot scope out how she handles topics like this. I heard that regular therapists may not be equipped to help recovering porn addicts so I was thinking about getting a CSAT.
But I really like this therapist and I do not want to stop seeing her. But I want as much help as I can get. I feel very indecisive on what to do.
Everyone in my house is suffering from depression and their own traumas. I’ve tried to be the shoulder for everyone to lean on and put a smile on everyone’s faces but lately due to me taking the initiative to battle struggles and get help for past trauma, I’ve stopped hiding my depression and I’ve been sleeping most of the time. I just don’t have as much energy right now.
I’m worried about my sister. I’m really one of the only people she talks to. She tries to engage in conversation with me but I just don’t have the energy to fully engage. But when I try to push through, it seems forced. She hasn’t said anything but I can tell it’s upsetting her. I feel horrible. I just want all of us to be happy.
I have been watching porn since I was 8. I was groomed multiple times online since then and sexually assaulted. My first sexual experience, I was forced into by someone older than me. Although I said I was ok with it, I was caught off guard and didn’t know it was going to happen. With no help until now. I just had to deal with it. I’m about to turn 19.
I finally said enough is enough a few weeks ago and I told my mother that I am in desperate need of help. I have a therapist now and she’s very nice but our next appointment is next week. I’ve been 38 days without porn.
I developed kinks that I am ashamed of and that I probably wouldn’t have had if all that trauma didn’t happen to me. But I noticed that as I quit porn and began trying to unpack what had happened to me, they all disappeared and I have no interest in them anymore. Is this a sign of my brain healing from all the damage porn has given me?
I’ve been addicted to porn for 10+ years. This is the longest I’ve been without it. I decided to get mental help alongside quitting. So far, I’ve sensed a change for sure. The things I thought I were into, I’m quickly realizing that I’m not and I’m healing from desensitization. I’ve barely had urges as well and I can focus better. It’s like my brain reset in a way. Which is nice. But I’m not in the clear yet.
I felt all of the withdrawal symptoms so far but I began to feel pretty fine and hopeful around the 15 day mark. but when I hit the one month mark, I began experiencing HORRIBLE anxiety and depression that keeps me up at night. I’ve been having passive suicidal thoughts(although I know I will never do anything to myself). I go from feeling hopeful about the future to thinking that everything is hopeless. And then I feel fine again. Just this up and down. It’s hard to fall asleep without melatonin gummies. I haven’t been eating like I should, nor talking to my friends.
I have a family member who holds me accountable and I have a therapist who I told about my porn recovery. But our next meeting isn’t until next week. Waiting that long seems like a nightmare. I am a woman struggling with this. I feel like an outcast. I quit cold turkey and I never expected for this to feel like quitting drugs.