u/Cautious_Raisin8966

I come from a very emotionally and sometimes very physically abusive household. I want to get as far away from my parents as I possibly can. They're willing to pay for my college as long as it's not an Ivy or is a school my MOM wants me to go to. I don't want them to pay a single dime and get as far away as possible. How can I pay my way through college. I would like to go to a prestigious university but I understand it wouldn't be financially viable since I plan on going to med school right after. I feel my stats are good besides my junior year GPA which is bringing me down (a lot of Bs in the IB program with 4 HLs) so I can get some merit scholarships but I am by no means extraordinary (no ISEF yada yada). What can I do? FAFSA will NOT help me my parents make a little over 200K and I'm an only child.

Im a 17 year old girl. I genuinely never thought highschool would be so bad. My first year was pretty good but all of a sudden my friends turned on me, slowly.

It was first the looks. I'm not dumb, I can see the vindicating looks they gave me.

Next was the ignoring in conversations

Then it was the constant shit talking

Lastly, 0 invites to parties and sweet sixteens

I remember my sophomore year I ended up going to therapy because I couldn't stop getting nauseous and crying all the time because people hated me. I still don't know why they hate me. I've always kept the policy of never letting a bad word about my friend leave my mouth even if they irritate me. I always apologized first even if it was their fault. I always complimented them, congratulated them, and wished them happy birthday. I always tried to be fair. I'm not going to pretend like I'm a great person or anything, I have my faults. I too am very judgmental, but I'm trying to fix it.

I heard from one of my friends today that everyone I was friends with in middle school and even now hates my guts. One of them refuses to even sit next to me because she finds me repulsive. The friend who told me everything told me that these girls ask why she even hangs out with me or why she even wants to be near me when they see us together. Some people find everything I do incredibly annoying.

Since so many of my friends dislike me, I thought it was probably something I did wrong. If everyone around me dislikes me, it's only responsible to take action and recognize mistakes so I can fix them and apologize. The thing is, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I DID!!

From what my friend has told me, this is why they hate me:

- I don't try hard enough in Spanish class?

- I try too hard in school T^T (I go to a really competitive high school so people don't like competition even I don't)

- I brag about my grades? (I don't recall doing this tbh I actually am very open to sharing all my bad grades and failures)

- I'm loud

- I'm annoying

- I brag too much (honestly valid tbh, I'm an insecure person and I feel the need to validate myself through talking about my accomplishments but I don't think it warrents so much hate when these girls brag about lot too. I'm glad IK ab this tho so I can learn to control myself)

- Apparently stuff I did in Middle School?? One girl ranted about me for an hour about every single thing I did in Middle School. Honestly I was a bum in Middle School but EVERYONE was a bum in middle school. BTW this was 3-4 years ago...really?

thats all I personally know. I'm very hurt and even though I've known these girls don't ike me I've always tried to be diplomatic and be nice to them. It has never been reciprocated. Not to be corny, but I'm not going to be nice to them anymore-but also I'll lose everyone I have. I really don't know what to do. I hate being walked all over...I wish they would tell me straight up instead of being awful. Why are people so vicious...I'm not bullied and it's not so severe that its warrents anything but its still frustrated. Some help please...

Due to hormonal issues, I've had acne since I was in Kindergarten (thankfully I dont have PCOS). There hasn't been a moment in my life since I started schooling where I haven't had acne at all. I'm 17 now and I don't think ive seen an uglier woman than myself. I have acne, acne scars, and hyperpigmentation all over my face, arms, back--literally everywhere. I've been begging and begging to get accutane for a long time and no matter what my parents always shoot it down.

My dad is a pharmacist and he keeps talking about all the side effects of the drug, but honestly I couldn't care less. I'd rather be pretty and on a "risky" drug than be ugly. My parents will give me everything BUT accutane (rn I'm on alternative medication homeo-whatever ). Not to sound like the stereotypical teenage girl but I GENUINELY have the WORST skin in my school. I've yet to see anyone with skin as bad as mine in person. I want to be able to take pictures of myself and wear sleeveless tops without crying, is that so bad?

just wanted to rant.