Does anyone know where to find a full recording of her one night only show from a few days ago? I've been scouring the internet trying to find one but the best I could find was full videos of maggots for brains and the cure😭
I'm currently reeling so hard at the moment. 66 days ago, a one month relationship (?) with no labels ended, and it still hurts exactly the same, if not worse than it did, on day one. I had been about 2 months out of a year long relationship when I met her, and I wasn't really looking for anything serious, but I thought I would give it a chance since she seemed like a really nice person and was pursuing me. It was an intense whirlwind, our first date was seven whole hours of captivating conversation that ended with a kiss that sparked something inside of me that I thought was long dead. Over the course of a month, we became so close, I told her things that I never said to anybody else in my life, and I felt a sense of safety with her that I had never felt with anyone in my life. It was also incredibly passionate, I had never really been one for physical touch but kissing her made me feel like I was alive. During this relationship, it really just felt like for the very first time in my life that I actually had something worth losing. I saw a future with her, even though it was only a short time. Then, on June 2nd, she just very plainly told me that she never had strong romantic feelings for me. It felt like my entire world shattered. How could she fake that level of intensity that I felt radiating from her? To this day the confusion still lingers. We've tried to be friends but she can't help herself from future faking me and flirting with me when she doesn't mean it. It's been almost triple the time we were together since we broke up, but I still love her (crazy to love someone in less than a month, I know). How will I ever move on? More importantly, how will I ever trust again? To be completely honest I've considered suicide over this situation more than once. I just don't know how to move forward because I don't think I could bear cutting her off, but I don't think contact between us is healthy either.
I recently had a horrible experience with someone who claimed to be Grey romantic. We dated for a short time, about a month, where they pursued me relentlessly and acted like they were super interested in me (even hinted at being in love with me). Then one day, they just woke up and decided they didn't have romantic feelings for me anymore and just completely discarded me, citing their grey romanticism as the reason why. Now, a few weeks later, they came back to me and started relentlessly flirting with me again, saying their feelings are back. Is this a common experience for Grey romantic people, or is this person just manipulating me?
I feel like I may be trans masc, but I'm just so mired in doubt about the whole thing. I've been thinking about transitioning since I was 15 (I'm 20 now), but it's been... inconsistent. Like I'll go a few months without thinking about it but then all of a sudden I'll feel weird about being called by she/her pronouns or I'll feel weird about having boobs or something like that. I do feel feminine sometimes, when I go out on dates and things like that, I like to wear makeup, and I do have very stereotypically feminine music taste (Taylor Swift, Olivia Rodrigo, etc). Over the last month or so the thought of transitioning has been taking up a lot of space in my mind, I want to start hormones but I'm nervous that I'll regret it, so I'll wait until pride month of next year. Last year I experimented with my gender a lot, I cut my hair and started wearing a binder, and I had never been happier than when a stranger called me "sir" at work, but I still have a lot of doubt because I do feel feminine sometimes, but it's like everytime I try to ignore it for a while, it just keeps coming back. Am I trans or just curious? Idk.