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Also I mean like his form when Aguri dies and his tentacles are white.

I finished it today and I cried so hard when he died😭

Ok so this has been bothering me for quite a long time and i don't really have anyone to tell so I haven't spoken about it. I really crave to be loved, so much so that ill hang onto what little of it I receive. I use to send alot of inappropriate pictures to alot of guys just so I could feel pretty and desired, just so I could feel some sort of 'love'. I've changed now I'm not like that anymore but I feel so empty, so disgusting, I just want to be loved.

The reason I'm writing this post is because I'm in a situationship/talking stage/relationship?? I'm not sure what we are but I do rlly like him. However I feel/know that he only wants me for nudes, he only really texts me when he wants that and anytime we speak he always asks if we can goon tg. I don't rlly like sending, It can be enjoyable but I'd rather not and it scares me. I feel understood and some sort of 'loved' from him so I just do it because I wanna make him happy. I know he mainly/just wants lewd stuff but he's also nice and understanding, but I'm also sure he talks to other girls because we're not officially dating and you could tell just by looking at his followers and following. I feel disgusting and stupid, I dont want to leave him but I wish he would text me more, I wish he wouldn't ask for so much stuff, I wish I was the only one.

All I want is to feel loved by someone who loves me the same way. But I seriously am just unlovable: I look disgusting, I'm annoying, I'm boring, I'm too clingy, too childish. I'm too much and too little at the same time- i hate it, I hate every single thing about myself. I get attached when I'm dating someone, I give and I give and I give-, for just the bare minimum in return. All I really want is to feel loved, feel accepted and be understood.