u/Chatman207

I've only been on vyvanse for a week. I noticed that my head calmed down, my emktions flattened just enough to really focus and that work felt good again. I am working out again, going for walks and organizing things little by little (not in a frenzy never getting anything truly done like I normally am).

My life is really in shambles physically, mentally and financially. Winter depressions are beginning to feel life threatening for the first time in my life. In other word my depression and ADHD have become unbearable. I tried to avoid meds most of my life and just couldnt take it anymore. This is the last breathe that might save my life.

The USA is so expensive, I have horrible injuries from work that have never healed and this chaotic yet creative brain. I work full-time from home due to my physical condition (caused by decades of hard labor). I start college tomorrow as well.

Today, I am grateful for the large and beautiful room I rent. The mini music studio, gym and computers I have to work, heal and play.

Faster cores vs more cores? If I begin streaming will the 9950x3d out perform the 9850x3d in fps? I am also gearing up for the future Day z 2 which seems like might be sooner than we think? Thoughts for today and teh future of Day z Pc builds.

Why is this happening? Is it forcing me to use diff vehicle now?

I saw this somewhere Is this accurate? -
"This is a mechanic that's shared between every repairable item in the entire game. Every item tracks the number of times its been repaired and applies a penalty to the effectiveness of subsequent repairs. Generators and car engines are notable exceptions to this as they are repaired bit by bit with scrap/parts. You can usually find the number of repairs applied to an item in its mouseover menu (iirc items that have never been repaired say nothing). For car parts, I can't remember if its displayed in the detailed description panel, but I know that removing a hood from its car makes it easy to identify the repair count." -

From my depression and its really not enjoyable always reading about all the negatives of meds. I hate taking meds and have fought the need tk take them my entire life. At this point Its either this or im done. Im making some scary changes and my psyche has been wacky, and getting worse and worse for years. I thought it was bad when I was younger but no, it will increasingly always get darker. So this is where im at, trying meds again. Due to the economy and being on my own again, I am also signed up for college for the first time in 20 years. I have no idea where that will take me, but I have to do something. I work full time from home, work out from home, enjoy making/recording music from home and simply need a better life. Winters always wreck my mental health after getting on track with diet and exercise over and over and over. Im also finally acknowledging a crippling adhd. Sure i can hypee focus on things i enjoy (music, Mycology, and sometimes games) but I am so disorganized when my mental health takes over. My roomates worry about me which just creates more anxiety, so leaving my cave is also hard. I go from Mr. Social to afraid of leaving the house. Mr. Romantic to Mr. Depressed. Its depression for sure, and adhd. Not bi polar. I am not a fan of stims but will be taking vyvanse alongside this for school. I really need to build a life. Low dose meds, diet, exercise and focus on work/school. Wish me luck and try to share some positive experiences when you have them, because people tend only to post when things go wrong.

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