u/ChemicalSpray3446

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I (22F) genuinely don't know what to do.

For most of my life I just assumed I was straight. Not because I was super boy-crazy or anything, but because that's just the default setting where I live. I'm from Islamabad. You don't exactly get much room to explore your sexuality here because everyone knows everyone so it is riskyyy.

A year ago I started dating a guy from my university. He's honestly a good person. Kind, respectful, supportive, the whole package. I'm not one of those people who's going to sit here and say "men are trash" because that's not the issue at all. We help each other with assignments, bring each other food during exam season, listen to each other's problems. There was a lot of comfort and emotional intimacy involved, and eventually we ended up together.

The problem is that I've never really felt whatever it is other girls describe feeling. The butterflies, the obsession, the can't-stop-thinking-about-him thing. I thought maybe I was just a late bloomer or emotionally reserved.

Then he introduced me to his sister. 🫠🫠

And my brain has not known peace since.

She's studying Art at the same university. The first time we met, she gave me a hug, started talking to me like we'd known each other for years, and somehow managed to be both intimidating and ridiculously easy to talk to🥹 She's one of those people who looks like she belongs on Pinterest. Every outfit is somehow effortless. Every conversation turns interesting. The kind of girl who casually sketches in cafes while making you rethink your life choices.

Since then I've asked my boyfriend if we can visit his sister THREE TIMES.

Three.

In the span of like two weeks.At first I convinced myself I just wanted a female friend. Then I realized normal female friendships probably don't involve replaying a five-second hug in your head at 2 a.m. Or wondering what shampoo she uses. Or getting excited because she liked your Instagram story. Or staring at the ceiling after every interaction asking yourself, Do I want to BE her or do I want her to pin me against a wall? 😭

I know. I'm aware.

The worst part is that my boyfriend is genuinely in love with me. Meanwhile I'm sitting here conducting FBI-level investigations every time his sister posts a story. Last week she reposted some vaguely sapphic art and I've spent an embarrassing amount of time wondering whether that means anything or whether I'm just losing my mind.

I don't even know if she's straight.

I don't even know if I'M gay.

All I know is that before meeting her, I spent years thinking attraction was something people exaggerated in movies. Then this woman appeared and suddenly I understood why the poets were so dramatic. So now I'm stuck.

Do I break up with a genuinely good guy because I'm questioning my sexuality?

Do I ignore this and hope it goes away? Do I accept that developing a crush on your boyfriend's sister is probably the most inconvenient way possible to discover you might be a lesbian?

Islamabad is already a small world. Our university is an even smaller world. This feels like the opening episode of a disaster.

Help.

I honestly don't even know how to describe what I'm feeling right now.

After my Corporate Finance midterm, I was sitting at around 20–25 marks out of 100. I remember calculating every possible scenario and realizing that I was basically staring at an F. At best, maybe a low C if everything somehow went perfectly. I had already accepted that Corporate Finance was going to be the course that destroyed my GPA.

Then finals came around.

For about a week and a half, I did almost nothing except study. pretty much lived in a constant state of panic and nicotine. It wasn't some magical productivity story either I was genuinely terrified. LIKE TERRIFIED. I can't even explain how terrified so just believe me when I say TERRIFIED.

Today the final marks came out.

I scored 6 absolutes above the class average in the final and somehow pulled my overall grade from what was essentially an F to a B.

A B.

I still keep refreshing the portal because it doesn't feel real.

So basically the reason I'm posting this is because during midterms I spent hours scrolling through Reddit looking for posts from people asking, "Is it possible to come back after bombing a midterm?" Most of the time the answers were discouraging or vague. So if you're currently sitting there with a horrible midterm score and feeling like the semester is over, it might not be. Maybe your final saved you. And if not, then next time if you find yourself screwing a midterm, don't think it's over. Sometimes one exam doesn't define the entire course, a comeback is actually possible. And trust me, if someone had told me a month ago that I'd finish Corporate Finance with a B, I would've laughed in their face.

Mashallah bol dein Dil Mai

Thank you for tuning into my Ted talk. Special thanks to green eyed pea for getting me through that double weight assignment, we both finally fall on the curve twin 🥹

Hey so Im doing a marketing job for an app, and I need to constantly make content, now I being the slightly older genZ, am not aware of what sticks lately. It is a food discovery and discounts app, what is some of the content you guys love watching and engage with?? What are some businesses or pages you follow and what would compel you to download an app?

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So, after surviving the entire first half of master's program fueled by caffeine, deadlines, academic panic, and the occasional existential crisis, I've finally landed in summer break. The problem is that I was so busy looking forward to having free time that I forgot to make any plans for what to do with it.

As it turns out, scrolling endlessly through social media is only entertaining for about five minutes before you start questioning your life choices.

So I'm looking to talk to some interesting people from Islamabad (or nearby). If you play Call of Duty, enjoy debating politics without wanting to start a civil war, have random thoughts about life, spirituality, society, or just enjoy good conversations about absolutely nothing and everything at the same time, I'd love to connect.

I'm not looking for anything dramatic, just genuine, intelligent, funny people who can hold a conversation and bring good energy. Bonus points if you're the type of person who can go from discussing geopolitics to arguing about the best biryani in Pakistan in the same conversation. I'm a huge foodie

Drop a comment, tell me a bit about yourself, your weirdest hobby, your hottest take, or what you're currently obsessed with. At the very least, it'll save me from becoming one with my couch this summer.