How do I deal with pretty severe bottom dysphoria?
I already posted this in another subreddit, but unfortunately, I didn’t get much of a response there, so I’m hoping it’ll go over better here. I hope that I’m allowed to post this struggle here. I’m a trans woman (23) and haven’t had bottom surgery yet, but I definitely want to. I experience a lot of dysphoria regarding my genitals. But I’m trying to find a way to cope with it as long as I still have them… I’m constantly aware of my genitals. I put off going to the bathroom and drinking, because otherwise I’d have to go more often.
If I have to shower, I skip parts of the shower to avoid touching my genitals. If I do touch them, I wash my hands so much afterward because it feels gross in my head. Because of that, my hands are often raw and have cuts and scrapes. I've always disliked and felt gross about them. But it's been about six years now of constantly washing my hands and all that, and it's incredibly exhausting and holds me back so much….. Does anyone else have this too? It feels like I’m the only one who has so much bottom dysphoria. Even if I talk about it to my friends who are trans aswell. What’s the best way to deal with it until I eventually have bottom surgery?
Thanks in advance 🙏