u/Cililians

I hear so many conflicting things about if life reviews are a real thing. A lot of people who have NDE's talk about them, but others claim fully that they are not a real thing?

I don't understand why we must be put through those things, some type of review where all our mistakes and flaws are thrown into our face so painfully, mistakes and things we did here on earth while under extreme stress and suffering ourselves.

And I am a very self reflecting person, I obsess over trying not to hurt people, and trying to do the right thing, but it's just impossible here. The idea of some type of review, sounds extremely unpleasant and unfair, and embarrassing just in my eyes.

And if we are sorry about things anyway, and are beating ourselves up and sad about friendship breakups for example, or harsh words we said while angry, why must we then later go through some painful "life review", being shown just how much we hurt someone and having salt rubbed into our wounds?

A life review really just sounds awful to me.

I have heard about pocket universes and such in nde's.

I remember a particular dream I had once, just a regular dream, very lucid though, where I went inside a wall through a small door and it "felt" like my own personal world. It was full of people, and it truly felt like I belonged there and everyone there knew and loved me deeply. It is a feeling I have never felt in my life here, experiencing it in the dream felt so right and wonderful, but it is still something completely unfamiliar to me here on earth. My own world.

It is an indescribable feeling compared to waking reality, it was just a wonderful feeling of being completely and fully where I belonged and being embraced and loved fully. Everyone in that room adored me, in that dream and it felt like my own personal world completely. I did not have to be shy or hold back socially because I knew everyone accepted me and wished me no harm and had no deceit.

I hope more than anything, that in the afterlife, we can all have many such worlds of our own or pocket realities to return to.

Our own worlds, where we are fully embraced and loved by people or beings who belong in our world and love us fully and are compatible with us deeply. Where we can all be our true selves and happy, and feel loved.

Is there a world.... many worlds even, waiting for us back home eagerly? With characters or beings we have forgotten about, but will be so happy when we return and we will only then remember when we get back there, that we actually have always belonged there and it will feel more real and familiar than we can imagine?

It's so interesting to me, reading about how the world in the afterlife can be so perfect or tailored to each individual, like the dying process is created for each person in particular for them to feel comfortable with it and at peace.

I read about people describing the most beautiful and otherworldly landscapes and architecture or surroundings. It's so much fun and fascinating to read about.

What is heaven like? What do people do there or what does it all look like?

Are there gorgeous beaches or worlds tailored to just what each person wants or needs? Delicious food like lobster or things we haven't even heard of here, much better food and we never gain weight?

Can we really do anything we want there, and have deep connections and friends already there that know us deeply and we can look any way we want? I just hear it is so much better than here, better than we can possibly imagine...

I am thinking about dreams, how "dream logic" is a thing, while we are in a dream the most silly and outrageous things can seem totally normal. Because there are no limits basically, and now I am thinking what it would be like living in such a place.

I know there are communities in the afterlife and cities and such, places where people live, but that there are vast amounts of these places and that the other side is huge and you can go to many different places.

But will it be just a bunch of nonsense, or is it set up deliberately to be similar to here so that people living there don't feel confused or disturbed?

Things like gravity, "logical" things and the way things work. Laws of physics and logical things that don't "break" reality here basically?

Or are things just going to be all over the place and ridiculous over there since nothing is off limits and there are technically no rules to follow?

I hope there will be pleasant "illogical" things though, things like being able to breathe underwater would be nice, and flight on demand.

I have been thinking this, and I had to ask this question.

I have been seeing so much lately about how global warming is accelerating, and it is quite clear now with the awful forest fires happening this summer that things are taking a bad turn. But I was wondering, with the war going on and so much oil being cut off, could that actually help a bit? As it would lessen the oil used globally?

I know it's awful of course, but could this actually help the climate, as we will use less oil because of this now?

Does anyone know what the status is on ctc holdings when it comes to CAW? Are they still buying as much, how much do they have now? And how do you all think the clarity act will affect memecoins like these?

I have seen mentions on here, different things in regards to this. Some say that we all have a perfect soulmate in heaven, or very close friends there that we have known forever or such. That we have just forgotten about while here. I

have also seen some NDE's claim that we often aren't incarnated with our soulmates here on earth for various reasons. I also just wonder what if we never even meet them here anyway even if they are incarnated with us.

What do you all think about this stuff? Think we have soulmates or friends in the afterlife, that are much closer than any relationship here could be, but we have just forgotten about? I wonder if they miss us and want us back there.

This morning, I was asleep and in the middle of a dream when I felt like a hand or fingers were touching my arm, and I was pulled awake startled, gasping because it had felt so real. And there was nobody by my bed. I have felt something similar like this happen once so I remember, when I was half asleep and felt like hands were suddenly choking me and I was startled awake back then too.

I have this paranoia, that an old abuser of mine is going to stalk me or visit me in ghost form once he passes, but he was very old and I am in no contact right now.

The touch I woke up to this morning did not feel malicious like the choking hands back then, it was just like someone was touching my upper arm somehow.

I like the idea of an angel or some loving presence watching over me, but am not sure what to think of this...

I have read many NDE's where people were told it wasn't their time yet, or their "contract" wasn't filled yet or something of those lines.

But how do we know when our contract has been filled and what does that mean?

Will we die immediately when our mission or contract here is filled, what do these contracts involve exactly? How do we know when they have been filled or we have done enough here, and what if a person has already fulfilled their contract even? How do we know these things?

What kind of things do these contracts have and focus on and what happens if we fail somehow?

My ex "friend". She never supported me back then when I was literally dying from depression, it was so severe I was in constant suicidal risk and had non existant boundaries, no self worth and was a passive doormat doing her favours and my entire life revolved around lifting her up.

I didn't care about my own financial situation because I thought I was dying soon anyway, the only thing I cared about was trying to invest enough money so I could help her buy an apartment... planning to die as soon as I managed to help her buy one.

I was in absolutely no state to be doing the things she demanded of me, I needed compassion and love, not... what I got. I could barely remember my own name, I think she very well knew this, I was not keeping it a secret she just never gave a damn about me or cared. Picking apart everything I did, I could never be good enough there was always something wrong with me.

You would comment on my face expression in public, saying I was "thinking" something negative about the person on the next table. This was always your own projections and darkness, not me.

Why were you making me think you were my friend if I was so awful? My intentions were always pure and loving, yet you always projected this darkness onto me... your own darkness.

She always acted like I was choosing this, no compassion and just... it was horrible.

And then in the end, she tried to weaponise my depression against me, saying I had "demons" and I was abusive and that I needed to "get help", not in a kind way but in a condescending performative kindness way, saying I was imagining everything when I was finally for once in my life standing up to her and not putting up with her angry bullshit and explosive tantrum against me.

I see so many on this subreddit describing being overly kind, overly self sacrificing, overly understanding and arrogant toxic types are drawn to us just waltzing over us and this is just awful... I feel so used and like she took advantage of me when I was at the lowest point of my life... thinking this person was my "friend", it's so sad...

I am not "abusive" for being literally bed ridden trying to survive until the next day, it was a real illness I tried telling you, you never listened to me and even in the actual depths of hell, even in that much pain... I still put your selfish ass and needs above my own and was killing myself driving you all over the place, taking care of your pets, taking care of your apartment... you would get angry with me if I said no to things, guilt trip me and just...

I was bed ridden from health issues, I fucking tried telling you all the time, it was real, would you demand a cancer patient do things for you and then guilt trip them and get angry if they said no, and then get angry as well if they fail doing you favours they were incapable of doing in the first place?? It's messed up man.

Even when I was on so much pain it felt like I was on fire, I always treated other people with consideration and kindness. Understanding.

I was never choosing this... fuck you for saying those things to me. What an horrible person...

Fuck you so much for using my worst traumas I trusted you with against me, exactly the things that made me want to die the most, and I am somehow the abusive one??? Who treats people like this. How can you not see how messed up this is.

I am no longer ashamed of myself, I am ashamed of you, for your own hand for being such a fucking awful person. And I one day hope you somehow magically develop the ability to feel this shame.

it has been more than a year now, I still just have this ball of anger inside me, thinking about what happened and the "friendship" I had. And the thing that drove me the most insane in the end, and drove me so out of character was how arrogantly she would claim things about me, like she knew me better than myself, that were completely wrong and it was just unbelievable arrogance looking back. But my boundaries were completely non existent back then, I was the biggest doormat in the world because I was so severely depressed.

She would just come to extremely wrong, and plain idiotic conclusions about me as a person, as if it was some deep and profound insight into my psyche or just regular things about me that were wrong. And I was so confused back then, I was in constant confusion about it, thinking if that is actually how I was and I thought it was some deep insight. But it wasn't even deep, it was just that she never even knew or saw me at all, being my "best" friend and it's just awful really. My whole life revolved around her, yet this person you trust with your life doesn't even know you and not just that... she secretly resents you and I had no fucking idea.

She would say extremely insulting and wrong things in regards to things like my illness, deeply personal things, she would claim that I wasn't actually goth but wore colours all the time, things about how I thought and what I actually meant during arguments, always just completely wrong things, but telling me this and it just... it was so rude and inconsiderate I would never fucking treat another person like this, it's just... basic fucking decency and respecting another person. Their autonomy, the audacity of telling another person who they are and what they "actually" mean or are thinking or such... it's just insanely rude looking back at it. It's controlling and manipulative as fuck. And the performative kindness as well... drove me goddamn insane. I know I am cursing a lot I am just a changed person after this... like I exploded finally and this "friendship" left me completely different and angry constantly now...

Just, the trauma of this all is insane. I am so angry with myself that I let her so close to me. But I know now it's not my fault. Just these types of people always target me... my boundaries and overly giving nature have always screwed me over like that.

I have heard about pocket realities in this subreddit before, that there are realms with specific things like harry potter or lord of the rings in it. Kind of like roleplaying worlds, but different I imagine. But can we be friends with, or even be with fictional characters we loved here on earth? And would it be real? I am wondering how that would all work... Just a lot of us relate to and connect to fictional characters very deeply. Even if they are "not real", they can feel more real than many other things or "real" relationships a person can have. Maybe this is just an autism thing, but I know that many people connect very deeply with fictional worlds and characters, and certain media has touched my heart deeply. I would love to be able to somehow meet with my favourite fictional characters in the afterlife and form real connections with them, and get to be their friend somehow.

I was looking into the mcdonalds human meat conspiracy theories, and started thinking about this. How much edible/usable meat is on a human body?

This is a question very close to my heart, but it is something I have wondered about immensely...

Do souls, before coming here plan out when they are going to die? And if so, can it happen that a soul somehow ends up living further than the date they were supposed to die somehow?

I especially wonder about this in regards to people who live very close to death for some reason for a long time, for example very ill people, very suicidal people, people who live with addiction or a very dangerous lifestyle in general. I think about all the times in my life, where I have been extremely close to death but somehow ended up surviving.

I remember reading NDE's where a woman was told that her son would die in the future and it ended up happening just like she was told.

But is it planned beforehand, and can a soul somehow end up surviving past that date by coincidence or sheer inhuman will, or luck or any other reason?

How do you all think it works?...

There are a lot of theories that we choose our lives here somewhat, before being born here. Now most of us here on earth, we are envious of certain people and desire a certain type of life somewhat. There are lives and things that most of us here want really bad, like being extremely beautiful/handsome or wealthy or athletic maybe. Certain people are born into very wealthy families or with very good genes, why do you all think we choose what we are born into, if so?

Do you think there is any specific reason why someone from the spirit world would choose to be born into a horrible, unfair life, disabled and very poor maybe? Or why a spirit might choose an easier and better life?

There are way more humans on earth that live "undesirable" lives, compared to the very few who happen to be wealthy or considered particularly attractive. The population in impoverished third world countries for example is very high, so the odds of being born into poverty seem way higher if I were to roll the dice again.

Like how I imagine it, in heaven/the afterlife all of us would have much better lives. We could look beautiful or however we wanted and live in a big mansion surrounded by beauty if we wished I believe.

So is it actually maybe considered more desirable to choose a very bad life that seems horrible from us here living on earth now? Are spirits actually more eager to choose the shitty lives, than to be born into a billionaire family here on earth, because such luxury or lifestyle isn't considered anything special in the afterlife and everyone can experience that already there?

What do you all think...?

Is a street sweeper that everyone looks down on here on earth looked at with great respect from the spirit side, while a nepotism billionaire on earth is considered greedy/selfish and looked down on in heaven?

I think quite a lot about death, and I am terrified of somehow being forced to come back here and forced to do this again but in another body somewhere on earth with a different family. It scares me so much, the idea of the light being a trap or forced reincarnation. I just don’t get why I would ever willingly come here and what I fear is that I will be told maybe I failed some mission or have to learn something I failed to learn and it’s just truly horrifying to think about.

Having to do this again, instead of just getting to go to heaven and be happy somehow. What if we fail our “mission” here or are somehow forced to return? For our “own good” even, it sounds like torture and injustice if so… I don’t know what I am supposed to be learning here and I just really never want to have to return here once this is over.

I have read quite a bit on here where people mention "pocket universes" or "pocket dimensions" as in they are able to somehow live out ideal lives or do anything they want to basically. I am very curious in how this would work, but it sounds fantastic and I think a lot of us would want something like that, to be able to do anything or be anything we can dream of.

Does anyone here know more about these pocket dimensions or something similar, how it would work in the afterlife?

I personally hope that we can somehow have or built multiple dream lives that we can jump into, like how you may have multiple different books, but you could choose to jump into each one whenever you feel like it. It would be a whole world personalised to whatever you want, and created to make you happy or to be engaging, a whole world basically full of characters or living inhabitants somehow that fit the narrative or world/fantasy.

For example, I would love to have one specific world maybe where I am a competitive figure skater, and it would be a unique world somehow with it's own characters, fun rivalries and drama.

Then maybe another world based on superhero's and the worlds could have individual characters from specific movies or tv shows I hope. Such as Homelander from a tv show called the Boys.

And then a gothic/vampire world that would be dark and dramatic, full of romance and drama and huge castles and unique characters/people too.

Just many different worlds maybe, that I could somehow jump into whenever I wanted and they would still function while I am gone and such, but it would still work to just return to them whenever. I would always have a place there. I like to think we would not have amnesia or memory wipe, like we do here on earth, but be aware of what we are and such. No amnesia.

How many souls exist in the greater reality outside this one, or the afterlife? I just wonder how much bigger it is than here, just how large and how many grand communities exist and I suspect that our world and life here is just extremely limited in comparison…

What I hope for, and what I wonder about in regards to the afterlife... I hope that we will have similar lives or "feel human" and like ourselves, as we do here but just much more improved, and perfect. Just better in any way. Like the after earth theories I have seen here, that it will be similar to earth just much more beautiful and better. Grander cities, better nature and everything more grand. But us still having our personalities and desires and ability to enjoy these things that we never could here, because of limitations or such. I want perfect freedom and joy.

I hope that we will still have things like movies and tv shows, and all my favorite bands from earth but more. I am thinking about my favourite tv show, and how the ending of it sucked so bad, what I really wish for is that we will somehow be able to watch it there but with maybe multiple endings and versions of the same show. For example, the ending of the popular show game of thrones was something a lot of people were extremely unhappy with.

Imagine if you had your tv and all that, and your favourite show but instead of just having one fixed ending, you had maybe multiple different dvd's with all sort of different alternative endings or improved plot to enjoy. You could sit down and watch the game of thrones universe we all love, but see what would have happened if Daenerys had more dragons in the show, or watch different timelines or versions of it. Same tv show, same universe, just exploring all the different possibilities.

This world right here we live in, there is so much creative wasted potential everywhere. We can't even get good endings because of budget or just plain bad writing. And even so, we only tend to get one final ending in series and movies. One version. But imagine if we could have many.

It would be like how I see people write fanfictions about their beloved media, it's the closest we get really to unlimited creative freedom, there is no bar to entry and anyone can write what they dream of and explore the media or tv show universe. Tv shows today and movies have to try to appeal to the general audience and most people, it's such a waste in my eyes, and a waste of creativity.

Do you all think this is how things could work in the afterlife? That we could have popular things that were big here on earth, but just better and improved in the afterlife?

Imagine if people who lived on earth are right now in the afterlife or heaven, going to concerts of dead celebrities who have published more songs and music over there and are working creatively without any limitations?

Or that the universal intelligence or god source, or just... you could generate any type of alternative endings or version of a tv show you liked and watch it and keep it by your tv somehow over there?

That is what I hope for, and I will be really happy if that will be the reality over there, that would be my dream life. :)

I made a similar post here the other day, but it got lost in the void...

I posted in a different group, a near death experience group the other day, about desiring luxurious things in the afterlife and how I hoped we could have beautiful mansions and extravagant things, delicious foods and wonderful travel destinations in heaven.

I assumed this was a universal desire, since the vast majority of us do enjoy nice things like that... things that are out of reach for the majority of us while we live here on earth. Unfairly so. It's greatly unfair that only the richest get to enjoy the most beautiful travel destinations on earth, and live in their dream homes.

But in the group I posted this in, I got absolutely swarmed by people calling me materialistic and acting like I was greedy and shallow, and not spiritual or such. Just people talking down to me, because I expressed wanting to enjoy beautiful things basically...

It was very silly, I assumed people understood what I was talking about, but no, I was just a shallow greedy person for even asking this question over there... They acted like I literally wanted to sit on a big pile of money in the afterlife, just wallowing in greed for no reason.

NO of course not! I was trying to say that I hoped we could all live our dream lives and be in gorgeous and beautiful place, such as a big mansion or a stunning beach, but those are all things that only rich people with money can access here on earth...

What on earth is "shallow" or bad about wanting to be on some gorgeous beach in a nice mansion eating lobster?

If "evolving spiritually" somehow means to "ascend" so you are just a floating consciousness in a blank white room doing literally nothing all day without a body, that's HELL and I would rather stay "unevolved" and primitive in my mansion with my lobster if that is the case...

We were made as human beings to enjoy beautiful things, fine art, luxury, beautiful buildings and delicious foods. (sex too, most of us) and that isn't shallow or "materialistic" or bad at all.

Just I hope the afterlife is full of these things, that everyone who is there can actually get these things, which would be actually fair for once and that it would be without suffering, for example no lobster having to actually suffer for it. I hope I still feel like myself, just healthier and better, but still have all my desires and personality I have now, so I can enjoy actually living in a limitless beautiful world full of wonders... How could one even enjoy all those fantastic things in a perfect heavenly world, if suddenly we are like monks who don't even enjoy or want anything?

One of the worst periods of my life, my biggest trauma was when I was so severely depressed and drugged up on psych meds that I was like an empty, ego-less and anhedonic shell of a person. I HAVE experienced what it is like, having absolutely no desires, no feelings, complete apathy and no sense of personality. It's not some "ascended" state, it was pure hell and I never, ever want to return to such a state. There is nothing glorious or great about it, it's just torture being alive and conscious like that. Having personality, desires and feelings is what makes being alive and conscious bearable.

I am not some greedy awful "materialistic" person for hoping heaven is full of these things, huge personalised castles and gorgeous beaches like I visited in Thailand. And the people in that other group talking down to me are not any more spiritually advanced than I am, like what even is the point of getting to go to a perfect heaven if it has literally nothing, what do you even want??

And I am by no means wealthy right now, I think being very wealthy on earth is largely immoral because of the vast poverty and suffering here. But if it were without suffering like in heaven and fully ethical, I would love the chance to live like that.