Is there a reason why my body looks way broader than its actual measurements? Can dysphoria actually distort your visual perception of yourself in a more literal sense? (MTF)
Hope this sort of question is allowed here. I’m 17 (turned at the beginning of the year) and have been on estrogen for about 2 months. I recently took my measurements for the first time since I was curious, and realized that I have very, very normal, and even pretty slim measurements for the most part. 32 inch underbust, 28 inch waist (a little tight when measuring, but i’m a tiny bit overweight. it’d be more like 30 if i measured it loosely i guess), and 33-34 inch hips. Despite this, my torso looks extremely wide. Maybe it’s because of my shoulders being broader including muscle and fat? they’re like 14.5 inches with just bone, and 16-17 with fat and muscle. I think my posture is a bit bad as well, since i slouch a little. maybe that contributes too. I’m 5’5”, so maybe because im a bit shorter and my torso is a little shorter it looks wider.
Anyway, I was curious, is there any merit to dysphoria being able to literally distort your self perception? almost hallucinogenic, I suppose. It’s just so odd to me that despite these measurements, my chest looks really broad and masculine.