u/Clear_Show4290

I need to get this off me chest but my ex and I broke up a couple months ago and I’ve been trying to heal all by myself. At times I’m over it, other times I’m not. I loved this man with sincerity, loyalty and full trust. He told me he never loved me or had any feelings for me and was just using me. He degraded me and laughed in my face when I told him about the pain he caused me. When I seeked clarity he said he’s been putting up with all the stupid questions I’ve been asking him. After months of trying to heal in a healthy manner I just blew up today. I cursed him from the depths of my heart with tears in my eyes for him to suffer the way he made me suffer. To be put in the same position as he put me. I genuinely felt bad after cursing him only because I fear Allah and I don’t know if it’s haram or not. I tired to move on from it in a healthy manner like new routine, hobbies, friends but I just couldn’t. I feel guilty now about cursing him and don’t know what to do. Is cursing someone haram and how do I move forward besides just praying and the things i mentioned.

Pretty much what the title says. I booked flights for the two of us for new years in a different country with each ticket being over $1000. I covered the ticket cost and he was supposed to cover hotel/ food. However, now we broke up and I’m stuck paying off his ticket as it’s non- refundable nor transferable. I still want to go on this trip but I don’t know how to tell him to pay for it since we had a messy break up and I frankly never want to see him again. I already spoke to the airline and they can’t give me any credit they can only give credit in his name so it’s a waste of a ticket at this point. I’d allow him to still go on the trip so long as he covers the costs we originally discussed. I’d like to send him the flight details as a reminder but I don’t want to personally email him and the airline won’t email him because I’m the person who booked the trip.

I was dating a guy who knew a lot about energy work and manipulating energy too. We were dating for about 8 months when he ghosted me and I stayed no contact with him too. During our no contact time I ended up with bed bugs somehow that I eventually got rid of, no one else had them in the house, only me. 3 months after no contact he comes back apologizing and wanting to see me, I thought I had moved on at this point but somehow I ended up entangled with him again. Mind you I’m usually very firm with boundaries and have never gotten back with an ex, plus this guy was never my type but he was available when I wanted some D and attention and we ended up getting together. Recently he dumped me again and said he’s only been with me to use me and never once loved me. He has such a strong grip on me that my soul feels like it’s been through the shredder. I’ve been keeping away from him but it feels obsessive and unnatural even for me. I always had high standards for myself and was celibate before getting with him. I don’t know how to detach from him and when I looked it up we had done a lot of sex magic knowingly of unknowingly. Like in front of a mirrors, during my period, he always was extremely pushy and insisted on me swallowing but I never did it except for once where he basically coerced me into it telling me the it’s his energy and life force that I keep wasting but framed it as a joke. I’m not sure what needs to be done but it feels like verbal or energetic spells have been cast on me. Also my finances, motivation, hobbies, all took a dip, this person chipped away at my self esteem, confidence and self worth too. He also used to talk about people trying to steal his energy and how I take from him too. He’s also claimed to have hooked up with a demon in disguise and has other interactions with demons. How do I break out of it?