Help.
I'm 31. She's 30. We've been together for 4 years. At first, intimate moments were okay. Not good, not great, just okay. Sometimes we've made love, sometimes we didn't. That was before we moved in. Last year, in july, we moved in. We haven't had sex since. I tried speaking to her. I tried explaining to her indirectly that something is off and wrong, and I've tried being direct. We never fight. We talk. We solve things. We do it together. To make it short, yes we do have arguments sometimes but it's just basic fucking stuff and it never escalates into something bigger than an "argument" which lasts for not longer than 20 seconds and it's literally basic things and even that doesn't happen every day, it happens barely. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I ask her if she's happy, she says she is. Every single day I look at her and I ask myself what am I doing wrong, she's "happy" but she won't touch me. It's like she's disgusted by me. I even fucking asked her, in literal words, "babe I'm sorry, mind if I ask? Do I disgust you? Am I not attractive enough? What changed?" And it always is some sort of an excuse. She's happy, but, we don't have intimate moments. I'm a guy. It's in my nature to thrive for sex and I'm going to admit it like the rest of guys, it's in my head every single day. It's not because we don't have it, it's because I'm a guy, we've been coded that way. I had prior relationships where it was fantastic, yet, it was in my head every single day. I want to make a child. I want my family. I want to come home to someone who appreciates me and where I'm welcome. Every single thing I do I think about twice or thrice before doing or saying just not to come off wrong. Just imagine. They're happy but there's no sex nor talk about family. I see people my age with kids and I'm glad, yet I'm sitting at home with some sort of a mental issue. We're humans. We're made for it. We need it. Our bodies need it. It's HEALTHY AND IT'S LOVE! WHAT am I doing wrong?!?!!?