u/ComfortableHelp14

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I'm so lonely. I've been starving myself for pedos, I'm so obsessed with the idea of being weak and easy to hurt. I have a porn addiction and really the only thing that gets me going is a dark porn, even gore sometimes. I've thought of giving my dad head when he was asleep when I was 11. I've tried to kill myself and didn't tell my mom cause I was scared she'd be annoyed or yell at me. I've done so many bad thing searching for trauma and I've gotten nothing. I've had to deal with everything myself. My self harm, my emotions, my thoughts, I'm so over it. Im willing to date or talk to almost anyone, it doesnt matter if they're trying to hurt me or not but im insecure so I get nervous to show my face and they dont want me anymore, and honestly I dont think anyone online would want to date me if they saw my face. I've searched out for pedos all at 14 as a male. Worst part is its like everyone around me is living what I want to live, being traumatized, being harrassed, being abused. Can't someone talk to me and stay with me?

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I'm lonely, I'd like to talk to someone and they all want face reveals. Why? Im 14 male, obviously if im asking for help on reddit im insanely insecure and alone. I just had a German guy who wanted to fix my life, like a therapist and coach and he asked me to let him and then left me because I wouldn't send a photo of myself in the same day. Im miserable, im starving myself for certain adults and still I have no one who wants me, I just want to talk to someone. Harmful or not I dont mind. My life is so boring, I do online school and that just makes it even worse.

I'm lonely, I'd like to talk to someone and they all want face reveals. Why? Im 14 male, obviously if im asking for help on reddit im insanely insecure and alone. I just had a German guy who wanted to fix my life, like a therapist and coach and he asked me to let him and then left me because I wouldn't send a photo of myself in the same day. Im miserable, im starving myself for certain adults and still I have no one who wants me, I just want to talk to someone. Harmful or not I dont mind. My life is so boring, I do online school and that just makes it even worse.

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I'll make sure this is vague so I dont get banned but, im 14 m, and my life is so boring, I do online school so im extremely lonely and nothing seems to appeal to me besides trauma and the small stuff I already do. I've fantasized about being assaulted and I've started to starve myself for certain adults. If you want specfics on what im talking about I'll tell you but I want to talk to anyone. Harmful or not, you can be any age, I dont mind.

I'll make sure this is vague so I dont get banned but, im 14 m, and my life is so boring, I do online school so im extremely lonely and nothing seems to appeal to me besides trauma and the small stuff I already do. I've fantasized about being assaulted and I've started to starve myself for certain adults. If you want specfics on what im talking about I'll tell you but I want to talk to anyone. Harmful or not, you can be any age, I dont mind.