u/Comfortable_Rent_794

Hi, I'm (20F) a university student and have become somewhat close friends with some other girls. Long story short, I've grown up pretty isolated and had very few friends growing up, and tend to overthink and daydream often.

I'm a very critical person, and I can't really see things in a positive way, because I don't think the world works in that way, and I do express what I think, but I feel like it may bother other people sometimes, especially when I end up disagreeing with them like 99% of the time. Tho I do try to keep it as polite as possible, I do understand that it can be frustrating, but I always have a hard time understanding when I should stop.

I've pretty much thought that the world can be cruel, but this feeling got a lot more prominent the more I grew up.

I feel like there's just a lot of general sadness, which has likely been present since...idk forever? It doesn't take much to make things just a lot more difficult than necessary, be it a sudden illness, the loss of someone, things happening within or outside your control that just disrupt you life, either momentarily or permanently.

This gets worse the moment you're part of a minority, or have had a rough childhood, and so on. Overall the lack of love and support, the right kind, is very detrimental.

And then people who are dealing with their own shit can cause more suffering for the people around them.

Just a few days ago, my mom lost a close friend who was going to work, and got thrown under a car, just to nominate one thing. The man was under the influence of drugs, and beside the clear stupidity of driving in that situation, there was no denying that the man might have had some issues of his own, that he couldn't personally handle...which then lead to the death of another human being, which is as bad as it gets.

And then there are politics, which end up bleeding everywhere, from the food we eat, to the media that we consume, from the clothes we buy and wear every single day, to the jobs that we have, with their never growing salaries.

Some days we can ignore all of this, and live our merry life, other days it just becomes impossible, and you see the suffering behind every single product or interaction.

This was just a thought that I've had for a while. I don't think I plan on changing anything anytime soon.

I want to live a quiet and simple life and do decent enough for both myself and the people around me, possibly causing as little damage as possible to other people, so that I don't poison them with whatever shit I'm going through, but sometimes I also wonder if people who I see everyday are going though something, and I'm too afraid to ask.

I'm a (20F) med university student, currently in my second year, and have been struggling with studying for a few months.

I commute to university pretty much every single day and it's been exhausting. I've managed to pass only one exam this year so far, and the summer session is coming soon, so I'll be drowning in studying until the end of July, but I'm not sure if I'll be able to pass anything.

I've always been a huge procrastinator, but after my last anatomy exam it just feels like my brain has given up on my and my performance has been lacking ever since, and if until that moment I could rely on extreme last minute studying and luck, now it just feels like I've lost any kind of motivation.

My health has also deteriorated a bit ever since my last years of high school and year after year it just seems to be getting worse, so I'm not sure about what I should be doing right now.

My parents have been hugely criticizing me, seeing that I'm not studying much anymore, and I know deep down that they may be worried, but it's hard for me to try and talk to them seeing that the only options that they've ever given me was to study or go straight to work.

Not to say that I also work on weekends to pay for university, and my performance there has dropped as well.

I have an exam next week for I feel like I've barely studied for, so I'm kinda sure that passing will be a miracle.

Some days I feel okay, most days I feel like shit.

I'd like to hear someone tell me that it's going to be ok, even if I don't pass or whatever. It just feels like I'm being eaten alive by my emotions, and I just can't really control anything at this point.