I was given a 10 day course for chronic babesia (I know) I’ve been really inconsistent with it unfortunately so it’s been spread out over the course of 2 weeks, but my fatigue is awful. POTS symptoms worsened especially after mepron dosing. My mental health is shit right now too. Any thoughts?
Just as the title says, preferably virtual North East United States?
Five fucking years undiagnosed.
Two years of herbal treatment.
I feel like the core parts of myself have been stripped away from me
I’ve been a selfish angry depressed obsessive fucking mess for the last five years and I’m so fucking scared I’ll never be who I was before. This is so unlike me. I’m so patient and gentle, and understanding and now I could rip someone apart with my words over any minuscule slight. I’m so disappointed in myself. I’m so ashamed of my behavior. I’ve hurt people around me, I’ve hurt relationships, I can’t stop thinking about all thrshit I’ve said and did, I can’t stop wondering where ny life would be if I hadn’t become this person. I’m so worried it’ll never end. I’ve been doing this fucking treatment for over two years now and it’s gotten me 40% better but I’ve plateaued and my brain fog has gotten so bad the last month. I’ve gotten into four car accidents in the last two years. Im barely getting through college. I’m so angry all the time. I can’t fucking do this don’t know what to do. I stopped seeing my naturopath because it was so fucking expensive and so I’m trying to make it work on my own. My guitar skills have diminished. I’m so tired all the time. I feel like I’m constantly stoned and all I want to do is smoke weed all fucking day just to hide it. I’m so lost.
Had my first interview two weeks ago, second one a week and a half ago, and just received this email now. Both interviews went well in my opinion, I was even offered a tour of the facility but they couldn’t because it was too crowded. Both interviews went over the allotted time too.
Maybe I’m overthinking?
I need some insight and maybe a reality check- and I will be refraining from giving too much detail out of fear of this post being found-
I found out I make $3 less than my coworkers despite being here the longest and having the same role/responsibilities. In my opinion, my performance is on par with everyone else’s and I have never been given any feedback about my performance or lack there of.
One of my coworkers I know negotiated the pay, which I can understand but the other one was given a raise a few months ago.
When I brought it up to management, they denied on account of some lapses in judgment and poor choices I had made over a year ago- of which I took full accountability of, correct and had not repeated.
They didn’t give me any feedback on what I could do better, aside from increase sales- which is tough because I work the slowest shifts compared to everyone else and they reduced my shift to one day week after I returned from a leave. This is not a corporation, so I’m limited to who I can turn to (if it’s even warranted)
I’m pretty pissed off, is this fair? Is that a justified reason? Am I justified to be so angry? I want to quit, I’ve been toying with the idea of leaving for a while now because my manager tends to have a tone (not just me, clients too) and it gets under my skin, among other things- but I’ve stuck it out because I love my job and I don’t want to just throw in the towel over something trivial. (and it’s not to the point of being abusive I should add) but this whole ordeal is kind of the last straw for me.