u/Common_Computer_6389

I am a 24 and someone who has struggled with my mental health for as long as I can remember. I’m trying to find some perspective and courage to seek help.

I think I have been sad a majority of my life. From a young age I have always been very stubborn and a master of masking my feelings. Very independent and not willing to rely or ask for help from anyone, even when it’s been offered. Even at times when I know I desperately needed it.

I’m usually able to break out of the depressive episodes i experience. (Usually hits me around the winter). But it seems that every year it gets a little bit harder. Every year a I feel a little more disconnected. I have been coasting for years never really moving forward. Ive been struggling to find anything that brings me joy lately. I’m at a very low point in my life. Currently unemployed and failing my relationship. I feel paralyzed. I have been isolating myself from everything for weeks now. I’m wasting away. I set an intention every night that I’m going to wake up and do better, but morning comes and I can’t pull myself out of bed. I haven’t even been able to bring myself to apply for jobs and I have ghosted my boyfriend for the past week out of guilt and pain. Self sabotaging and pushing him away at times.

I’m fairly certain I’m clincally depressed and I’m unsure why I choose not to help myself. Why I’m unable to speak about it. There has been so much anxiety around it. I think about the fact that you can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped and I have been living in that for years. Sabotaging my own life to the point that I hate it and feel like there’s nothing I can do to fix it.

I guess I would just love to hear some people’s thoughts, recommendations, stories with their own mental health journeys, the process of getting diagnosed. Honestly open to any positive feedback.. As I need some perspective, some way to keep pushing forward and to stop giving up on myself.

I am a 24 and someone who has struggled with my mental health for as long as I can remember. I’m trying to find some perspective and courage to seek help.

I think I have been sad a majority of my life. From a young age I have always been very stubborn and a master of masking my feelings. Very independent and not willing to rely or ask for help from anyone, even when it’s been offered. Even at times when I know I desperately needed it.

I’m usually able to break out of the depressive episodes that i experience. (Usually hits me around the winter). But it seems that every year it gets a little bit harder. Every year a I feel a little more disconnected. I have been coasting for years never really moving forward. Ive been struggling to find anything that brings me joy lately. I’m at a very low point in my life. Currently unemployed and failing my relationship. I feel paralyzed. I have been isolating myself from everything for weeks now. I’m wasting away. I set an intention every night that I’m going to wake up and do better, but morning comes and I can’t pull myself out of bed. I haven’t even been able to bring myself to apply for jobs and I have ghosted my boyfriend for the past week out of guilt and pain. Self sabotaging and pushing him away at times.

I’m fairly certain I’m clincally depressed and I’m unsure why I choose not to help myself. Why I’m unable to speak about it. There has been so much anxiety around it. I think about the fact that you can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped and I have been living in that for years. Sabotaging my own life to the point that I hate it and feel like there’s nothing I can do to fix it.

I guess I would just love to hear some people’s thoughts, recommendations, stories with their own mental health journeys, the process of getting diagnosed. Honestly open to any positive feedback.. As I need some perspective, some way to keep pushing forward and to stop giving up on myself.

I am a 24 and someone who has struggled with my mental health for as long as I can remember. I’m trying to find some perspective and courage to seek help.

I think I have been sad a majority of my life. From a young age I have always been very stubborn and a master of masking my feelings. Very independent and not willing to rely or ask for help from anyone, even when it’s been offered. Even at times when I know I desperately needed it.

I’m usually able to break out of the depressive episodes i experience. (Usually hits me around the winter). But it seems that every year it gets a little bit harder. Every year a I feel a little more disconnected. I have been coasting for years never really moving forward. Ive been struggling to find anything that brings me joy lately. I’m at a very low point in my life. Currently unemployed and failing my relationship. I feel paralyzed. I have been isolating myself from everything for weeks now. I’m wasting away. I set an intention every night that I’m going to wake up and do better, but morning comes and I can’t pull myself out of bed. I haven’t even been able to bring myself to apply for jobs and I have ghosted my boyfriend for the past week out of guilt and pain. Self sabotaging and pushing him away at times.

I’m fairly certain I’m clincally depressed and I’m unsure why I choose not to help myself. Why I’m unable to speak about it. There has been so much anxiety around it. I think about the fact that you can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped and I have been living in that for years. Sabotaging my own life to the point that I hate it and feel like there’s nothing I can do to fix it.

I guess I would just love to hear some people’s thoughts, recommendations, stories with their own mental health journeys, the process of getting diagnosed. Honestly open to any positive feedback.. As I need some perspective, some way to keep pushing forward and to stop giving up on myself.