honestly? this has been super fun. I have two servitors at the moment, one specifically to make someone unable to move on from me, the other to decrease my need for results and to soothe my anxieties. i want to make more for specific tasks and everything, and i want to make a lot…i don’t know if that’s bad hahahah.
i finally realized, or well let myself realize after 5 months, that they just won’t change. i did everything i could. i exerted all the effort i had in my body. i lessened myself, i got angry, i tried begging, leaving, anything, but they won’t change. what avoidants want is to receive and receive and receive. whatever happened in their life messed them up so bad that they know what they’re doing is wrong, but they don’t want to stop it anymore. they’ll do anything and everything to justify themselves.
i’m finally letting him go, and im finally realizing that even if he will get better in the future, I can’t wait for him anymore.
yes, they love you. no, they won’t change.
you can do literally everything, you can be close to death, and that won’t change anything. they are so far up their own heads, nothing will reach them. avoidants are made of kerosene, and you must get away before they burn you too.
never date a sagittarius guys 💔 i loved him but he was never gonna fix himself. he was just too messed up. love isn’t enough unfortunately. they can love you but have no emotional capacity to treat you well. they can know they treated you badly but not want to go to you still. they will never accept that they were wrong- but it hurts. i know ill be fine. but yeowch.
edit: some people took this too seriously. i also don’t need to explain myself and how horrible the situation was to anyone.