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For the fellas that have gone through it, what conclusions have you made after the experience, what are the implications of it that you’ve tried/or have come to terms with?

Hello! Going to spread some love today <3

So my younger brother has downs, he’s 18 and I’m 22F. When I was growing up a lot of the time I’d feel a bit pushed aside from both my parents, they split when I was five. It was most of the time all about my brother, that wasn’t to say that they neglected me, I just didn’t understand why he needed more attention than I did.

This came with a lot of resentment for my brother, especially in my teen years going into high school when I was getting more self sufficient and also much more hormonal. I was fighting and arguing with both of my parents quite often just in general and didn’t have the maturity to understand why I just could not connect with them that well.

My brother had a great relationship with both of my parents, specifically our dad, he absolutely loved him. Unfortunately my dad passed away when I was 17, and my brother regressed a bit after it happened. At his funeral, it was the first time I ever saw my brother cry over something as deeply painful as grief, and it honestly wrecked me, my mum, my friends, everyone that was there.

I grew up real quick after that, loss changes you, but I also realised that I hadn’t been a great person so far in my life. I sorted my shit out and started having a better relationship with my mum as well as my brother.

I realised how damn hard it is for my mum, as the sole parent to navigate life with a child who has special needs, why she gets so stressed and upset because there’s not a lot people there to support her. Having children is always going to be a lifelong commitment, but it’s entirely different when they need such deep care and support as a special needs person does. I’m building myself up to be the best sister ever to him when my mum does pass, because it’ll be me and my older brother taking care of him.

So all of that said, thank you to the parents of these wonderful beautiful souls, thank you for cherishing them despite the struggles and hard nights. You guys are loved and are badasses for doing what a lot of people wouldn’t be able to. I appreciate and love anyone who treats my little bro with the same respect and kindness as anyone else, especially more with my mum, who’s done the best job at raising him and has kept on going. So if anyone hasn’t said it to you guys lately, I will. Thank you, and I love and appreciate you <33

Live in the moment, planted on earth and attack every day with the knowledge that you are alive. Breathe, step back, let it flow, trust in yourself to be the best version of you. You cannot control anyone else but yourself, so keep your mind and soul twisted in one. Happy tripping my friends! 💯

I feel like I have to share this on here bc you guys are just awesome.

I had a job interview today, and considering the country that I live in and the job market here is pretty scarce, I’m in a very great mood with how well it went.

I can honestly say that tripping has made me so much more confident in myself to be very charismatic and appreciative of what I’ve been given. If it wasn’t for the trips that I’ve had this year and the amount of love I have for life because of it I couldn’t have gone into the interview without all the experience that I’ve had deconstructing my brain and figuring out what’s important for me.

I have a trial tomorrow, and I will do well. LSD has saved my life mentally, and I’m in a really great space in my early 20’s that I didn’t think I’d be in even two years ago.

This shit helps, and it helps in such drastic ways. Always be careful, always go in when you know you have a good mindset, because it does wonders for how you navigate day to day. I’m so blessed, and I hope this post can give as much hope to you guys as it has been for me <3

I’m fixing my mates laptop at the moment, ended up having a bootable NVME in spare to double check it wasn’t a hardware issue (which it wasn’t) ran some scans and figured out it was the registry database that was kicking up a fuss.

My first plan was to do a fresh os install on the drive, but of course don’t have a usb big enough to make a boot installation, I could wait to get one but I do want to fix it now.

CMD commands can’t repair the corruption either, is there another way to get around that? Or am I doomed to have this be a multiple day problem before I get that 8GB usb?

I’ve been thinking about this for a while, and it upsets me because I find religion in general to be very interesting itself.

The dogmatic structure that makes up those big religions is how that disconnect starts. once followers, people who preach and breathe their religion, start to live in fear of whatever punishment this religion may have for someone if they do a certain thing they start to not live as their authentic person. When people only do good things in fear of whatever punishment may come to them that’s when they aren’t actually living to be themselves or to do good things just because it’s a good thing to do.

People hide behind that mask of dogma, I would like to talk to people who have been raised in religion to share their experiences on this or the psychology behind it because it’s very common to come across.

I DEFINITELY recommend a water balloon fight while peaking my god I felt like a kid again, as a 22 year old woman lol

Has anyone had any trouble mixing batches? Just want to double check before I go ahead and take a blotter and a gel

For the people that have gone real deep, what would be the hardest thing to articulate to someone who hasn’t gone that far? What would they not understand that deep divers would get immediately?

My mate got a hold of some 200ug gel tabs and wants me to come over and take two. What’s everyone’s experience with them? I’ve only ever had it in blotter paper, have you noticed a difference in strength when it comes to 400ug of gel and 400ug of blotter?

I’ve been sitting on this trip report for a while now and still have absolutely no idea what the experience meant, but damn was it some crazy shit.

For reference I had been getting teased a lot of spiritual symbolism in my past trips before this, so I had an idea of what I was seeing. I don’t remember time stamps but i remember it started during my peak.

I was with a friend who took the same dose as me, he’s a seasoned psychonaut so I felt super safe around him and he managed to make me feel pretty calm during this whole process.

I had a balloon full of nos and knew that I had enough of the spiritual teasing and just knew that there was more to see than what I had already been shown, so I full sent the balloon and closed my eyes. I was met with white winged eyes, looking exactly like a biblical angel as it transported me into the door of the afterlife. I had seen this angel once before in one of my previous ego death trips, but what completely shocked me was what was past that door.

As I let myself transcend the barrier, suddenly a scroll of text popped up as it showed me the word ‘CONTROL’ in all caps before I shot my eyes open and then boom, the most beautiful visuals I have ever seen. I mean I really unlocked it, the flow of energy made with sacred geometry, the almost grid like makeup of my 3D reality shown to me, the ancient symbols that showed itself to me if I focused on any part of the room from an almost gear like shape scrolling through that entire language. I got the whole shebang, but that’s not the most mind bending part of it.

I noticed after the initial shock of being thrown into the universes makeup, that I did not have control over my heart, anytime I resisted looking at what it was showing me whatever was controlling me in this realm was not happy about it, forcing me to observe it all. I mean if I resisted this force then it would remind me that it could stop my heart, my pineal gland would throb painfully and anything I tried to control in my body would just start spazzing out until I relented. This internally freaked me out, especially after seeing the word control before noticing my lack of it afterwards. Now I realised surrendering made it a much more pleasant experience, but my brain was still trying to understand how the fuck this was happening, what I was being controlled by, and if I really have free will if I can be controlled this easily by an unknown force. Is my death predetermined by this cosmic puppeteer?

I promptly didnt go to sleep for two days, and considering the visuals just did not leave and I was still controlled until I woke up the next morning, I’m suprised I’ve made peace with the experience despite not having many answers to what I went through. It didn’t feel malicious, but it did feel entirely out of my pay grade as a human.

EDIT: When I got home I definitely did cry to my mum, who used to trip so much back when she was younger, so she knew my reality was shattered and I stayed in her bed that entire day just annoying my younger brother. I’d say I reacted pretty well despite my mini breakdown

What would logically happen if someone were administered with DMT while in the REM cycle of sleep? Would the experience change or would they just wake up and have a normal DMT trip?

Has anyone had their awakening while on a psychedelic? If so did it come to you unexpectedly?

Are there any studies/information on what a psychedelic experience would be like for people with mental disabilities, specifically something like a cognitive disability (Down Syndrome, other special needs disorders)? My brother has DS and I have always wondered what he would see and how he would be able to process it. Granted said person with a disability is cognitive enough to articulate what they had gone through.

I’m aware of the story of a grandmother with alzheimers that could talk better after a mushroom trip, though I would like to learn more :))

The divine has blessed me tonight. I wanted to ask, what is past that barrier? I have gone through, but i know others have ventured further. How is that like, letting yourself go so far you aren’t sure if you’ll ever come back?

This is fking annoying, buying the sub because I hit the swipe limit and it doesn’t even change it. do I have to wait until they reset at some point tomorrow so that it goes to unlimited? How many people are having this issue?