Successful withdrawal
Hi all,
Thought I’d share my experience of escitalopram and my experiences coming off the medication.
I started taking it around 4 years a go during shit period in my life which amplified years of challenging social anxiety (which I mostly managed myself). I was diagnosed with PTSD and prescribed 10mg of escitalopram. I had been taking it ever since, which massively changed my life and certainly improved my anxiety symptoms. However, I was always aware it was blunting some other emotions. I’ve always had strong emotional feelings in a lot of ways which was something I quite liked about myself (I grew up with emotionally blunt parents and I have two siblings with ASD who also struggled with displaying emotion towards others)so this was quite a noticeable change when some of these feelings quietened.
What I wasn’t aware of was the insanely challenging withdrawal symptoms when I tried weaning myself off it. The irritability was something I had never experienced before and this practically resigned me to feeling I would see no way out of it.
Around 3 months a go I started purchasing Armodafinil after I was having some challenges with my workload. This had some positive effects but it didn’t combine well with escitalopram. I came across a subreddit for moda where it was discussed as a weaning tool for SSRI withdrawal. With some gradual weaning and daily moda use, I am currently two months free of escitalopram with no symptoms of withdrawal in that time. I’m not going to pretend to be an expert on pharmaceutical titration etc but I thought this could be helpful for others.
I was even watching a movie this evening and got ‘goosebumps’ for the first time in years. It felt totally foreign to me and quite euphoric in some ways which was obviously a feeling being blunted by SSRI’s previously. Im not advising the taking of any stimulants such as Armodafinil, just sharing my experiences. 😁