[L] negative feelings towards my aunt
To give some background I am a 22 year old male who was raised by my mother and father who raised me very well. They were both gone working for a majority of my child hood before they divorced. I was 11 when they divorced and lived with my mom. When she was gone working I stayed with me aunt. My aunt was a licensed therapist who helped me through the divorce. I stayed with her a lot from the age 11-17. She was never like a mother figure for me but more of a friend. After a while around 13-14 I started to notice I was attracted to her. I never told anyone because I was scared. Fast forward to 18 year old I got in a relationship and didn’t have this problem any more. Now fast forward to present day I am recently single and my aunt is recently divorced and I’m attracted to her again. I hate these feelings and wish I wasn’t. I have struggled with the idea of telling her but am scared she will be mad. I love her (not in an inappropriate way) and she has always been there for me. I just don’t understand why I feel this way when no part inside of me wants to feel this. Is something wrong with me? Did my trauma cause this or what? If you have any advice feel free to share.