u/Cosmos_chaotic_mind

Soo, something happened and I wanna know if I am the only person experiencing this kind of thing or if other people relate, and whether there is an explanation or term for this. (I also made a post about this in a different subreddit, but I think people here can give better advice)

Basically, there is this YouTube channel of two people who were best friends and made a bunch of videos together, their videos made me extremely happy because they kinda gave me hope that one day I'd meet a person who would understand, love and accept me and simply stay with me forever, yk? They didn't judge each other, they simply expressed their adoration for each other without feeling awkward, and they had similar interests to talk about.

But they haven't been posting for over two years, so I went to investigate and found out that they started dating, then broke up and are technically still friends, but they just don't talk to each other anymore n stuff.

And since I found that out (it's been 2-3 days), I've been very "emotionally disturbed" or whatever you want to call it. I have randomly started crying when I thought of them, I can barely sleep, and I don't even feel hungry anymore. I can't properly listen to music and daydream anymore because I will think of them and start crying! I am also constantly feeling anxious.

Things that usually make me happy don't help either, I basically often just lay around in my room, curled up, hugging a shark plushie and trying not to cry or find something that makes me happy again. I feel completely exhausted, lonely, drained and empty.

I've had a similar experience one or two years ago, except it was about fictional characters and not real people.

I also think it might be related to a few things that happened in my life. For example, basically the same thing that they had going on happened to me around half a year ago. I had a friend that I loved more than anything, we started dating, broke up and then barely talked to each other anymore. She sometimes posts on her old social media accs, but then she disappears again. Also, when I was around nine years old, I was in a „relationship" with someone online (probably just some random p*do or something) who told me I was his whole world, just to then cheat on me, and discard me like a piece of trash. That cycle went on for multiple years.

During the last few days, after I found out that these two random strangers on the internet had broken up, I have been thinking things like „I'm gonna die alone" or „I just won't find a person who truly loves me" or „They will all leave me anyway" which is kinda stupid considering I wasn't even involved in the whole thing.

Can someone please tell me if they have had similar experiences or whether this is a normal thing to have sometimes?

Soo, something happened and I wanna know if I am the only person experiencing this kind of thing or if other people relate, and I think it also might be related to neurodiversity because we feel emotions stronger or whatever

Basically, there is this YouTube channel of two people who were friends and made a bunch of videos together, their videos made me extremely happy because they kinda gave me hope that one day I’d meet a person who would understand, love and accept me and simply stay with me forever, yk?

But they haven’t been posting for over two years, so I went to investigate and found out that they started dating, then broke up and are technically still friends, but they just don’t talk to each other anymore n stuff.

And since I found that out (it’s been 2-3 days), I’ve been very “emotionally disturbed“. I have randomly started crying when I thought of them, I can barely sleep, and I don’t even feel hungry anymore. I can’t properly listen to music and daydream anymore because I will think of them and start crying! Things that usually make me happy don’t help either, I basically mostly lay around in my room, curled up and trying not to cry or find something that makes me happy again. I feel completely exhausted, lonely, drained and empty.

I've had a similar experience one or two years ago, except it was about fictional characters and not real people.

Can someone please tell me if they have had similar experiences or whether this is a normal thing to have sometimes?

I have been thinking about this a lot recently. By „normal“, I mean, you see them in public and don’t feel like you need to call the police or the local orphanage because they don’t stand out from the rest of the crowd too much (please also consider what kind of clothing etc they would wear)

I’d say Kunikida, Sigma, Lucy or Oda would be good candidates, but I’d like to hear others opinions about this too :>