u/Crafty-Caterpillar92

I really need your life experiences to make me understand the hype and love for him cause honestly he really hasn't given me any reason to

For the longest time. My life has been hella down hillfort a long period of time and feels like this is just the new norm until I die or something and even tho good things happen there and then. I can't shaken the feeling of why im not moved. Everything I've experienced has just made me hate him and not believe in him. Like why do I have to be broken or go through so much just to get to him or to be free from this hell or why does he only do miracles when things are rough. Just to prove that his *all powerful?* he only does that when things suddenly become bad and his that superhero to save the day.

I'll tell u the truth. God has many followers and he doesn't care if he loses a few so why do u even put up if your not even special in his eyes

I'm only like this cause I've given up on him, I don't feel heard or connected like in the past. Maybe I'm just pouring out my hurt because my situation can't change but this is just based on me. Your views on him shouldn't change because of a stupid post like this one

I'm just tired of the same loop

I really need your life experiences to make me understand the hype and love for him cause honestly he really hasn't given me any reason to

For the longest time. My life has been hella down hillfort a long period of time and feels like this is just the new norm until I die or something and even tho good things happen there and then. I can't shaken the feeling of why im not moved. Everything I've experienced has just made me hate him and not believe in him. Like why do I have to be broken or go through so much just to get to him or to be free from this hell or why does he only do miracles when things are rough. Just to prove that his *all powerful?* he only does that when things suddenly become bad and his that superhero to save the day.

I'll tell u the truth. God has many followers and he doesn't care if he loses a few so why do u even put up if your not even special in his eyes

I'm only like this cause I've given up on him, I don't feel heard or connected like in the past. Maybe I'm just pouring out my hurt because my situation can't change but this is just based on me. Your views on him shouldn't change because of a stupid post like this one

I'm just tired of the same loop

I am at my breaking point in life where I have no idea WTF God wants me to do. Every time i try to quit something or completely stop for gpod, he keeps telling me to come back and try again and at first I'm always hesitant but this is God, he knows what he is doing but everytime i listen. The results are just negative and its gotten to the point I cant even trust his messages despite being clear because everytime i come back, it's just for nothing in vain so honestly I'm just thinking of disobeying his command now because I'm just wasting my time everytime he keeps telling me to try again or come back to something that has just been giving me negative results consistently, not all the time, they are some positive results but mostly the bad than good so these positive results are just nothing

The title says alot to why im posting this. Does anyone have the solution to this problem. Ik I'm not the only one who's dealing with this

Every trade I take is going against me in an abnormal way. Whenever I take profits, the next trades become a mission to blow my account completely. And before you say, risk management or greed. Hear me out. This only happens immediately I make a win. The next just become a blow out game. Every time I'm off the chart, the best set ups present themselves but when I decide to trade. Shi goes south. I either blow another account or just get unsatisfactory trades. Yes market is unpredictable but I'm noticing the pattern that has made me draw to this conclusion. I even have screenshots to prove it

Yo if u have anything thats got u off this please let me know. Enough is enough. Can't take it anymore......it feels like I'm living in a constant loop for so long that I don't even know what to do to stop it. The amount of times I've literally paused and come back i can't count

Idk if its spiritual but man I'm scared. Its been difficult studying these days. Like everytime i open up a book or try to read something, i just suddenly become tired and sleepy but the momrnt i take a step back, my energy is back and I'm more alert than before. Its been happening for so long its concerning. I'm writing exams on monday, I've been praying and praying but its just not working at all. Its affecting my grades as well because efforts into my studies are going to waste because of other battles I'm facing. I need help.....

Everything is just leading to disappointments one moment after the other no matter what i do differently. The results are just the same

I've been struggling for so long it feels like this has become part of my life because whatever I'm doing differently is just leading to the same results. They say "God is closest to those at their lowest" but still everything is just the same.

I've reached a point whereby even the signs of change are not convincing enough, the small blessings can't make my day to believe everything is okay because its just the same old, same old everyday

Others who aren't prayerful are doing better than me, others who are prayeful are striving day by day. I fall nowhere in that category. I'm just those who are just not meant to do anything in life

Everything is just leading to disappointments one moment after the other no matter what i do differently. The results are just the same

I've been struggling for so long it feels like this has become part of my life because whatever I'm doing differently is just leading to the same results. They say "God is closest to those at their lowest" but still everything is just the same.

I've reached a point whereby even the signs are not convincing enough to believe because its just the same old, same old everyday

Others who aren't prayerful are doing better than me, others who are prayeful are striving day by day. I fall nowhere in that category. I'm just those who are just not meant to do anything in life

For a while something has been bugging me for a while, its a pattern, many of us deal with, I'm not the only one. Have you ever gone through so much that even 1 good thing, ranging from small to big can't even make you happy anymore or give u hope of a brighter future lying ahead?

Recently. There was this thing that I really wanted for a while like a very long time and i pushed so hard to get into it but as a result i exhausted myself and became emotionally drained but I finally got it. However, while i was happy and excited, that sense of doubt and sadness lingered my soul that u ask yourself "was it worth it?"

It's reached a point where hardwork doesn't feel like an achievement but more of an obligation because the environment we grow up in.

It's not the first time this has happened, but I've only recently acknowledged it because this is something I've been crying, working hard for but that sense of achievement didn't come the way I imagined. It made me feel like i was ungrateful.

What do u think?

For a while I've tried to keep being with him for a while. I've had times where I'd say I'd stop completely but end up coming back but now I think I'm done

I've been dealing with the same battles over and over again for a while and it feels like its never going away as much as I try to do anything I can to change that but silence and silence as always. I've gotten too used to handling things on my own that trusting God feels uncomfortable now because as much as he has promised us alot. That time won't come until death or when he comes on earth. You can never know how long I'll have to stay on earth to see these things

Everything just feels wrong. Like I'm no longer do anything about it. I pray, fast, do everything but nothing changes. I look at others and feel like I f*cked up somewhere to lead me to this. These days ive been look up on witchcraft and fix everything because im genuinely tired of waiting for the same problem to end, I hate bible posts and videos when im low because it has no meaning anymore. They would show up when things become wrong but now they genuinely annoying me because it doesn't fix anything im dealing in my life

If witchcraft is the only solution to this whole thing then I'll do it idc. I have no choice anymore. I'll come back when everything is fixed but I've just given up trying. Im not worthy