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I’ve struggled with eating disorders for as long as I can remember. My earliest memory is being around 7 years old — refusing to eat with my family all day, then sneaking into the kitchen at night when everyone was asleep, bingeing until I couldn’t breathe, and then purging. That cycle went on for years.

When I turned 30, I finally decided I couldn’t live like that anymore and sought help. I was in an eating disorder clinic daily for 6 months, and overall my treatment lasted about 2 years, on and off. Eventually, things started to improve. My doctors recommended antidepressants, saying it would help stabilize things — and they did. But I also gained around 20 kg in just a few months.

Then GLP-1 medications became available, and I was prescribed Wegovy. For the first time in my life, I felt like a “normal” person. The food noise — the constant, exhausting mental chatter about food — just… stopped. It felt like I could finally breathe and actually live.

I was on Wegovy for a little over a year and lost almost 20 kg. I reached a weight where I felt comfortable and stable. After staying on the 2.5 dose for a while and maintaining, I decided to stop. I’m 33, and I want to have children in the future, so it felt like the right time.

But within days of stopping, the food noise came back. And now, two months later, I’ve gained 9 kg.

And mentally, I feel like I’m that 7-year-old girl again — wanting to hide during the day and eat my feelings at night.

I’m honestly scared. Will this ever stop?

Do I need to be on injections for the rest of my life just to feel “normal”?

Is there any way to maintain that sense of peace with food without medication?

For context: I’m very active. I hike regularly, walk a lot, and work in healthcare. This isn’t about not trying hard enough or lacking discipline — if you know, you know.

I’m just wondering if anyone else has experienced something similar, and how you’re managing now. Is there hope?

I’ve struggled with eating disorders for as long as I can remember. My earliest memory is being around 7 years old — refusing to eat with my family all day, then sneaking into the kitchen at night when everyone was asleep, bingeing until I couldn’t breathe, and then purging. That cycle went on for years.

When I turned 30, I finally decided I couldn’t live like that anymore and sought help. I was in an eating disorder clinic daily for 6 months, and overall my treatment lasted about 2 years, on and off. Eventually, things started to improve. My doctors recommended antidepressants, saying it would help stabilize things — and they did. But I also gained around 20 kg in just a few months.

Then GLP-1 medications became available, and I was prescribed Wegovy. For the first time in my life, I felt like a “normal” person. The food noise — the constant, exhausting mental chatter about food — just… stopped. It felt like I could finally breathe and actually live.

I was on Wegovy for a little over a year and lost almost 20 kg. I reached a weight where I felt comfortable and stable. After staying on the 2.5 dose for a while and maintaining, I decided to stop. I’m 33, and I want to have children in the future, so it felt like the right time.

But within days of stopping, the food noise came back. And now, two months later, I’ve gained 9 kg.

And mentally, I feel like I’m that 7-year-old girl again — wanting to hide during the day and eat my feelings at night.

I’m honestly scared. Will this ever stop?

Do I need to be on injections for the rest of my life just to feel “normal”?

Is there any way to maintain that sense of peace with food without medication?

For context: I’m very active. I hike regularly, walk a lot, and work in healthcare. This isn’t about not trying hard enough or lacking discipline — if you know, you know.

I’m just wondering if anyone else has experienced something similar, and how you’re managing now. Is there hope?

I’ve struggled with eating disorders for as long as I can remember. My earliest memory is being around 7 years old — refusing to eat with my family all day, then sneaking into the kitchen at night when everyone was asleep, bingeing until I couldn’t breathe, and then purging. That cycle went on for years.

When I turned 30, I finally decided I couldn’t live like that anymore and sought help. I was in an eating disorder clinic daily for 6 months, and overall my treatment lasted about 2 years, on and off. Eventually, things started to improve. My doctors recommended antidepressants, saying it would help stabilize things — and they did. But I also gained around 20 kg in just a few months.

Then GLP-1 medications became available, and I was prescribed Wegovy. For the first time in my life, I felt like a “normal” person. The food noise — the constant, exhausting mental chatter about food — just… stopped. It felt like I could finally breathe and actually live.

I was on Wegovy for a little over a year and lost almost 20 kg. I reached a weight where I felt comfortable and stable. After staying on the 2.5 dose for a while and maintaining, I decided to stop. I’m 33, and I want to have children in the future, so it felt like the right time.

But within days of stopping, the food noise came back. And now, two months later, I’ve gained 9 kg.

And mentally, I feel like I’m that 7-year-old girl again — wanting to hide during the day and eat my feelings at night.

I’m honestly scared. Will this ever stop?

Do I need to be on injections for the rest of my life just to feel “normal”?

Is there any way to maintain that sense of peace with food without medication?

For context: I’m very active. I hike regularly, walk a lot, and work in healthcare. This isn’t about not trying hard enough or lacking discipline — if you know, you know.

I’m just wondering if anyone else has experienced something similar, and how you’re managing now. Is there hope?

I’ve struggled with eating disorders for as long as I can remember. My earliest memory is being around 7 years old — refusing to eat with my family all day, then sneaking into the kitchen at night when everyone was asleep, bingeing until I couldn’t breathe, and then purging. That cycle went on for years.

When I turned 30, I finally decided I couldn’t live like that anymore and sought help. I was in an eating disorder clinic daily for 6 months, and overall my treatment lasted about 2 years, on and off. Eventually, things started to improve. My doctors recommended antidepressants, saying it would help stabilize things — and they did. But I also gained around 20 kg in just a few months.

Then GLP-1 medications became available, and I was prescribed Wegovy. For the first time in my life, I felt like a “normal” person. The food noise — the constant, exhausting mental chatter about food — just… stopped. It felt like I could finally breathe and actually live.

I was on Wegovy for a little over a year and lost almost 20 kg. I reached a weight where I felt comfortable and stable. After staying on the 2.5 dose for a while and maintaining, I decided to stop. I’m 33, and I want to have children in the future, so it felt like the right time.

But within days of stopping, the food noise came back. And now, two months later, I’ve gained 9 kg.

And mentally, I feel like I’m that 7-year-old girl again — wanting to hide during the day and eat my feelings at night.

I’m honestly scared. Will this ever stop?

Do I need to be on injections for the rest of my life just to feel “normal”?

Is there any way to maintain that sense of peace with food without medication?

For context: I’m very active. I hike regularly, walk a lot, and work in healthcare. This isn’t about not trying hard enough or lacking discipline — if you know, you know.

I’m just wondering if anyone else has experienced something similar, and how you’re managing now. Is there hope?