I dont believe in allah
I feel so suffocated and exhausted. I love my culture the traditions, the food, the history it's a part of who I am and I don't want to lose that. But I cannot keep pretending to believe in something I don’t. I don’t believe in Allah, and I don’t believe in any god at all.
It’s incredibly draining to have my parents constantly forcing this belief onto me, day after day. They think they are doing the right thing, but they are just pushing me further away. I just want to live my life on my own terms. I want to be able to make my own choices without the weight of a religion I don’t belong to hanging over my head.
I’m tired of living a lie just to keep the peace. I just want to be me, without the labels and without the fear of being forced into a box that doesn't fit.