u/Creative-Fruit-6322

I don’t know if it’s my medication or what but my brain sometimes just needs to process things slower now and it’s really affecting me at work and my manager reprimanded me already and said I need to move with more urgency I’m trying to find a way to sit down with her and tell her I have epilepsy because I’ve only recently been diagnosed there’s still so much testing we’re doing, the official diagnosis happened after I started working there but I’ve been on medication for about four months and having seizures for over a year. She’s very snappy and I already had to call out three times twice for two doctors appointments and once because I foolishly drank a lot of alcohol and had a seizure outside and didn’t feel comfortable going into work, all times I got doctors notes. I do my work though I barely make mistakes, they’ve asked me to work Wednesdays and Fridays cause they’re short on workers and I’ve done it the last two weeks. She said I’m in a grace period and my performance will determine if I’m fired or not within the next few days I’m looking for other jobs, but debating speaking with her.

I don’t care if it’s something like McDonald’s I have experience in food, retail and hospitality. I just need something that’ll get back to me quick or is hiring now

Basically I’ve been working at chipotle for about three weeks. During these three weeks I’ve been assigned cash and when we have rushes they’ll have me hop onto line and help out, but the most time I’ve spent on line is 5-10 minutes. The most I’ve ever done with line too is observing. Today my manager came back from her PTO and she observed me I according to her I wasn’t working fast enough, but today was the first day they assigned me to line for the whole day. I won’t lie I was nervous 1. Because she was there and 2. Because I basically was starting a new position. I’ve never made a burrito before chipotle before working at chipotle and my coworkers have been showing me but I’m only successful with half of my attempts. Today she told me that her and other managers have been observing me and I need to work with more urgency and I’m in a grace period, otherwise I’ll be fired. I immediately went to the grocery store bought some tortillas and timed myself wrapping a bowl I brought home from work and perfected making burritos. I don’t want to get fired. I just need some advice. I’m new and if I’m moving slower it’s because I don’t want to make any mistakes.

I’ve been self harming every day for the past two weeks, I’m currently looking for a place and sleeping in the living room at my mothers house. I set an alarm early in the morning so I can cut before everyone wakes up, I have a therapist but I’m afraid to tell her I started again. I can’t afford to be hospitalised again I need to keep working I can’t keep living at my mother’s place. My stepdad doesn’t like me and he treats me like crap every day the longer I’m here the more he adds to how miserable I am. I also can’t stand being around my siblings, when I tell them to do their chores or to stop fighting they make fun of me and tell me “that’s why you have to take pills for the rest of your life”, I can’t go to my friends because they don’t know how to help me and they have their own problems, my mother doesn’t really care either. She’ll just tell me I need to calm down and stop being dramatic. I feel like I’m at a breaking point. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m so miserable and I feel so alone. I have no one to turn to. The hospital barely helps either, the therapy there sucks and all I do is sleep all day. If I go back my family will just shame me and my job will reprimand me. I just feel like I’m going crazy

I’ve relapsed recently and have started to self harm before every shift at my new job. I don’t hate my job I just hate working. I do it because I can pick at the scars or pinch my arms and distract myself from what’s going on around me and just focus on my arms. I’m trying to stop but I take 15 minutes before my shift just to do it every day.

I 22 (F) have friends who I can talk to, but I don’t talk to them about my issues because I can tell that it’s too much and overwhelming for them sometimes and that there trying to deal with their own lives. My mother tells me I need to calm down and she usually ignores me when I try to go to her. She usually tells me to talk to my therapist and I do talk to my therapist. I talk to my therapist several times a week and she has honestly been the best therapist I’ve ever met after countless therapist. I have a psychiatrist I really like too and I take my meds every day, but I feel so alone. I journal multiple times a day I meditate and noting helps. I go on walks I do everything that you’re supposed to do and nothing is helping. My therapist tells me to reach out any time but I don’t want to over do it. I’ve been hospitalized many times and my mother suggested going back but I just started a new job and I don’t want to jeopardize it. Plus I hate the hospital, it’s mostly groups and I get more therapy put than in the hospital and I’ve been to three separate hospitals. I’ve even been to the best one in the city. I just don’t know what to do. I feel physically sick every day, there’s this feeling of nausea eating at me, the depression is really bad this time around and I have no one to turn to. I don’t want to be any one’s problem and I can hear that sigh in their voice when I start talking about my problems. I’m trying my best but I just feel so lost