Neglected wife
My husband is in the army 21M and I am a 20F. He constantly denies sex with me and says that I turn him off. I’m a very sexual person and this kinda hurts me bc I feel like I’m not good enough. We are eachothers first bodies and only bodies. I found out he was paying 500+ for OF in February of this year. He wanted to meet with the girl to bang. We used to bang eachother like rabbits in highschool. He said he wanted to meet w her bc he’s basically tired and used to our sex. I tried to roleplay w him in July bc he said he’s into that but he kept on getting soft. I completely gave up on sex with him. Everytime I ask for it I get turned down. What do I do at this point? We have a history of porn addiction. He looks at women who have bbls, natural big butts, or big boobs. And I look at passionate things. Because that’s what I crave. And he makes no effort to make me orgasm. He’s probably eaten me out 10 times within the 5 years we’ve been together. I’m just tired of this. We have constant fights and when I beg for sex he gets so annoyed. I just want a connection with my husband. He’s so turned off by me for whatever reason. We’ve agreed that porn is a no go in our relationship but I know sometimes he jerks off when he showers in the mornings when I’m not awake. I want him to want me but there’s nothing I can do. Please give advice.😔 I feel unloved and unworthy of having a physical connection w my partner.