u/Cultural_Crazy9891

are there any other aqua risings that have a hard time letting go of the idea that ur meant to do something really big in your lifetime or that ur meant to be someone really powerful?? even if its kinda causing you to be in a constant state of worry about your future or you feel the need to constantly escape cuz ur currently reality doesn’t match the one you believe you’re meant for? like if you could give up the need to have a big purpose and just allow yourself to enjoy your current reality you would probably be a lot better but for some reason you just can’t seem to let go like everyone else. you can’t seem to be okay with the mundane and the simple life.

tw/ neg
tw/ neurodivergence
tw/ mentions of hell

i know it’s like such a first world thing to vent about having to return to work but as a black neurodivergent, it feels like the end of the world sometimes. i quit my last job back in january from burn out and i tried to start a business so that i would never have to return to corporate america or minimum wage jobs but its definitely just not going to cut it right now in this economy. i want to move out of my toxic childhood home so i rly have to earn money to leave, unfortunately that means returning to neurotypical work environments and daily burn out from work. im so angry ive just been crying at the fact. even thinking about having to go through interviews again and masking again it all gives me so much anxiety and frustration. i hate capitalism and i hate having to sacrifice myself like this just to survive in this world. i’m tired of being damned if i do or don’t. being neurodivergent in this economy is literally like being stuck in a hell-cell.

hi, i’m doing new moon tarot readings today for as long as i can until i do my new moon ritual tonight. drop your questions and i will do a 2-card pull. no questions about pregnancy/gender reveal, deceased ppl, or life-threatening illnesses.

this gemini new moon is all about curiosity. New moons are about setting intentions, starting anew, and revealing new information. if ur curious about new projects, new hobbies, a new start this might be helpful for you. if you have started something and would like to set intentions during this new moon, this would be a good time.

TW// racism, child abuse, pedophilia, slavery

i’m 22f and i was diagnosed with adhd last year but i’ve known all along i was different. it’s like one thing to be black and have to deal with racism from non-black people and self-hating blk ppl but it’s another thing to also deal with unconscious black peers, family, friends who are extremely toxic to themselves and others and can’t even see it. they don’t believe in mental health and the psychological effects of racism + the structures/beliefs of racism they uphold that are literally harming them and those around them.

black parents wonder why all their kids hate them and don’t want to be around them after literally abusing them physically, verbally, and psychologically all their life by beating them into obedience and treating them like a burden for YOU bringing them into this ugly-rotten world.

anti-woke black siblings and peers bully you and alienate you for being conscious of this bullshit system and the fucked up behaviors you aren’t willing to sweep under the rug done by the people that were supposed to love and protect you. they call you weak for being sensitive and rightfully emotional.

a lot of the black community treats you like shit for not being okay with “that’s just the way it is” and questioning why is it that we have to suffer more than everyone else. like growing up i always felt so alone simply because from a young age i never could accept that as a good enough answer, i could and will never be okay with someone assigning me the shit end of the stick knowing it’s not what i deserve.

why is everyone so okay with being fucking miserable and so freaking horrible to the only people that actually believe you deserve to exist and be happy and thrive regardless of who you are (mainly queer, neurodivergent, black people)???

i just feel so fucking alone. if ur a neurotypical straight cisgender black person who’s okay with being a modern slave all your life, at least you can still count on being loved accepted by your black family and peers. even if you are a woman beater or a pedophile or a homophobe/transphobe. but if you aren’t….good luck🤷🏾‍♀️

hi, i’m F(22) and i was diagnosed with adhd last year. i have been on adderall since september of last year. i take 20mg, i started out with 10 and went to 20mg. i was wondering how long you were on adderall before your grew a tolerance to it and had to change to a higher dose? and i was wanted to know how much higher did you go like just another 5mg or more?