So I just got back from my follow up with my OBGYN post ultrasound about my ultrasound results. I am confused. This may truthfully bit a bit of a vent too.
She said my ovaries are enlarged and there was one singular cyst on one of them which she told me may rupture or may kind of just hang around there. I obviously meet the other rotterdam criteria like mildly elevated testosterone and physical shows of it, anovulation and absent periods for sometimes 2 months at a time. My thyroid is underactive (insulin is in normal range, I initially assumed I may be resistant but clearly not) and that is something we are looking into, Vitamin D is low but being managed.
She prescribed me 50mg of Spironolactone once a day which I am SO excited to try honestly, any management is amazing. But the thing is I asked her if I have PMOS and expressed that I was very tired and frustrated of not having an answer and wanted a pretty straightforward yes or no (which I realize in hindsight it is not so simple I guess) and she was just saying I probably do, then re-clarified and said I definitely do? I asked again before she took me to get a metabolic panel (more labs, I'm so over this shit dude.) and she again said I probably do and it is PMOS until proven otherwise.
So...do I have PMOS based on this or do I not? It's very cryptic, the answer, and this agitates me a lot. I do understand though that PMOS is something kind of tricky to diagnose because there is a lot of overlap, but I guess I'm sad I still don't seem to 100% know? I don't know if I have a right to say "I have PMOS" which yes, irks me, because this diagnosis doesn't feel very like...confident on her end? It is but also isn't seemingly. Also, if anyone wants to share their Spiro experiences, I would love to hear them and know what to expect.
MBTI: ENTP
Enneagram: 7w6
Tritype: 729 (2w3, 9w1)
Instinctual Stack: so/sx
Openness: 79.17%
Conscientiousness: 41.67%
Extraversion: 58.33%
Agreeableness: 62.5
Neuroticism: 54.17%
Socionics: ILE
Temperament: Sanguine-Phlegmatic
Alignment: Neutral Good
I'm not sure if it's the typical poor ENTP stereotype that blurs my perception of what ENTPs can be or what, but I find all of this put together kind of strange? Or like...jarringly people oriented and friendly. Is this contradictive or is it okay and acceptable all around? Perhaps just a show of a well developed tertiary Fe? I'm not sure.
Hi. 19nb here, I already meet the PCOS/PMOS rotterdam criteria: Irregular periods usually once every other month nowadays, elevated testosterone (DHEA-S is in normal range so this does seem to be an ovarian issue), excess hair growth, painful and itchy jaw acne, a stubborn weight I can't get below with dieting (dieting I've never actually struggled too bad with), elevated thyroid which I'm unsure if it's related or not, etc. I spoke with my first gyno back in February I think it was and was lucky enough to have my very first transvaginal ultrasound scheduled which I just went to a few hours ago at a local hospital. I have a follow up for results with my gyno on June 4th which I anticipate I will be given proper clinical diagnosis.
Very nice and clean place, the woman who did the exam was incredibly sweet and so gentle with me, she even said I could insert the wand myself but I said I'd trust her hands over my own. However...the exam itself, I have a lot of thoughts and they aren't very good. The insertion hurt so damn bad. I was laying there so confidently feeling incredibly ready and right as it passed the entrance, on cue was the most excruciating, eye opening vaginal burning and pain I've ever felt, it was enough to make me start crying and start literally beg apologizing because I knew I was reacting very strongly towards it and I felt so damn bad. No doubt I was drier than the Sahara desert then down there as is so it just makes it harder. She kept telling me "I know, I know, it's okay" as she slowly pushed it in and assured me greatly which honestly was very soothing and helpful.
It was very fast and once it was past the entrance, the pain died off rapidly and the feeling very tolerable all in all and I rapidly calmed down, the wand didn't hurt at all coming out. Course it only lasted a good few minutes or so and I was up and ready to get dressed and go home, but I honestly found myself kind of...dissociating slightly after it, or just jarred a bit, and I was bleeding the slightest bit which is no big surprise to me given I don't do penetration period (asexuality and such) so of course my vagina isn't used to anything going up there very far, not fingers nor toys and I don't like anything up there as is. The visual of the experience keeps replaying in my mind, even the painful sensation I experienced, I can recall it just as it happened.
I don't know. Input and experience sharing welcome to potentially make me feel less alone, I was just so shocked and embarrassed about all this and didn't know what to expect...I just hope I can get a fully fledged diagnosis because I want answers and I almost hate that this is the length I must go to get them. Being stuck in the unknown is so tiring.
I'm cross posting this from the ENFP subreddit obviously. But, I think this might be a better place to ask as is. You guys have been very helpful in the past!
I direly need someone to help me here. I know I'm a Ne dominant and a Si inferior, this is very apparent, I'm just so stumped and confused vs Fi-Te vs Ti-Fe?
I somehow feel like I'm both, though that is very obviously not possible. I'll talk about myself a little bit and share some things that might define one or the other. I cannot decide between these two types and keep flip-flopping.
- I'm not really that feely. I mean that as in I can cry no doubt, it's kind of just that I have a pretty strong aversion to sitting with negative emotions and I would rather journal them out and kind of theorize why I feel certain was. Even recently having to, I've disliked it. I've literally no problem opening up about my past, my past emotions, past feelings, but present emotions are really hard and I despise that feeling of being so vulnerable. However, I pride myself on being someone people can be vulnerable TO. I repress my feelings and distract myself until I suddenly start to cry one day from sheer overwhelm and feel confused as to why...and it all clicks into place.
- My empathy feels purely cognitive. I can put myself in other people's shoes, not really feel what they feel inside myself but I can understand their POV, the why behind how they feel, even predict how they feel. I don't have that foreign to me empathy of "If you cry, I cry!". I've never been that way, never could be. I like to help people period and do guide them with pretty straightforward solutions and advice, sometimes I try and tailor it because I know one size doesn't fit all. I'm very open minded and don't judge, people seem to feel like they can tell me anything. If the general "vibe" needs a tonal shift, I'm pretty socially aware enough to comply with it because it's just the appropriate thing to do, even if my feelings don't match how I act.
- I'd consider myself more logical. When it comes down to decision making, I sort of have to talk some days to think about my options but especially have a need to talk things through with people. However, I don't ever ask people for direct advice because being honest...I will not take it and end up doing what I want to do anyways, I just need to get the thoughts and ideas out somewhere and love input no less. It's kind of like coming to a cognitive conclusion THEN consulting with my feelings to come to really decide and do what I think will be best for me. I always overanalyze myself AND my choices for that matter.
- I am pretty confrontational once I start to reach my breaking point and can be assertive with setting boundaries, putting things to a stop and calling out certain behaviors. It's kind of like entertaining it till suddenly I can't do it anymore. I do tend to let a lot of things slide because they're not affecting me on the surface, but I have been prone to letting resentment greatly build deep inside me. Even with these boundaries I set, they do get overstepped easily...I don't tend to do much about that and kind of just feel whatever. I don't care THAT much. Yes, I do eventually snap and "door slam", but I've got so much optimism that I give countless chances and always see the good in people so I'm very open to many tries at making stuff work and extremely forgiving. I CANNOT hold grudges.
- I'm pretty joyful and warm a lot of the time, excitable, witty, random, out of pocket, can be jarringly blunt and "shocking" with my words which catches people off guard but seems to amuse them to a great degree so I just pride myself as being a seriously funny person. I do consider myself pretty loyal to my friends as a whole but as one might expect I do get shiny new object syndrome with people, the temporary new connection novelty, but I always prefer returning to the very few people who truly do love, accept and get me.
- The final thing I'll say about all of this is that I kind of struggle with knowing who I am deep down. I mean who I am as in what I like, what I value (besides obvious moral and political things), my favorite anything, what labels apply to me as a whole, personality, traits, all that good stuff. I feel like my thoughts and opinions are changing 24/7 and I can not come to a true and proper conclusion nor stand by one.
Please do forgive me for how long this entire ramble was, I really just need to come to a conclusion between these two types. If there's any further defining questions that could be asked, by all means ask! I'm a very open book as I've been the last two times I've come here.
I need someone to help me here. I know I'm a Ne dominant and a Si inferior, this is very apparent, I'm just so stumped and confused vs Fi-Te vs Ti-Fe?
I somehow feel like I'm both, though that is very obviously not possible. I'll talk about myself a little bit and share some things that might define one or the other. I cannot decide between these two types and keep flip-flopping.
- I'm not really that feely. I mean that as in I can cry no doubt, it's kind of just that I have a pretty strong aversion to sitting with negative emotions and I would rather journal them out and kind of theorize why I feel certain was. Even recently having to, I've disliked it. I've literally no problem opening up about my past, my past emotions, past feelings, but present emotions are really hard and I despise that feeling of being so vulnerable. However, I pride myself on being someone people can be vulnerable TO. I repress my feelings and distract myself until I suddenly start to cry one day from sheer overwhelm and feel confused as to why...and it all clicks into place.
- My empathy feels purely cognitive. I can put myself in other people's shoes, not really feel what they feel inside myself but I can understand their POV, the why behind how they feel, even predict how they feel. I don't have that foreign to me empathy of "If you cry, I cry!". I've never been that way, never could be. I like to help people period and do guide them with pretty straightforward solutions and advice, sometimes I try and tailor it because I know one size doesn't fit all. I'm very open minded and don't judge, people seem to feel like they can tell me anything. If the general "vibe" needs a tonal shift, I'm pretty socially aware enough to comply with it because it's just the appropriate thing to do, even if my feelings don't match how I act.
- I'd consider myself more logical. When it comes down to decision making, I sort of have to talk some days to think about my options but especially have a need to talk things through with people. However, I don't ever ask people for direct advice because being honest...I will not take it and end up doing what I want to do anyways, I just need to get the thoughts and ideas out somewhere and love input no less. It's kind of like coming to a cognitive conclusion THEN consulting with my feelings to come to really decide and do what I think will be best for me. I always overanalyze myself AND my choices for that matter.
- I am pretty confrontational once I start to reach my breaking point and can be assertive with setting boundaries, putting things to a stop and calling out certain behaviors. It's kind of like entertaining it till suddenly I can't do it anymore. I do tend to let a lot of things slide because they're not affecting me on the surface, but I have been prone to letting resentment greatly build deep inside me. Even with these boundaries I set, they do get overstepped easily...I don't tend to do much about that and kind of just feel whatever. I don't care THAT much. Yes, I do eventually snap and "door slam", but I've got so much optimism that I give countless chances and always see the good in people so I'm very open to many tries at making stuff work and extremely forgiving. I CANNOT hold grudges.
- I'm pretty joyful and warm a lot of the time, excitable, witty, random, out of pocket, can be jarringly blunt and "shocking" with my words which catches people off guard but seems to amuse them to a great degree so I just pride myself as being a seriously funny person. I do consider myself pretty loyal to my friends as a whole but as one might expect I do get shiny new object syndrome with people, the temporary new connection novelty, but I always prefer returning to the very few people who truly do love, accept and get me.
- The final thing I'll say about all of this is that I kind of struggle with knowing who I am deep down. I mean who I am as in what I like, what I value (besides obvious moral and political things), my favorite anything, what labels apply to me as a whole, personality, traits, all that good stuff. I feel like my thoughts and opinions are changing 24/7 and I can not come to a true and proper conclusion nor stand by one.
Please do forgive me for how long this entire ramble was, I really just need to come to a conclusion between these two types. If there's any further defining questions that could be asked, by all means ask! I'm a very open book as you can see.